I had made up my mind.. i'll start setting goals.. and make sure i'll accomplish them.. I shall try to look forward of my life.. i shall try not to be affected by the emo-ness that i had towards work, life, etc..

Ok, i noe tis is lame.. i couldn't run, due to my old injury.. but i could walk.. i'll walk in the race.. cuz i noe some ppl also walk through out the race.. I signed up for Nike She Runs 5Km.. LOL.. happy.. my first 'race'.. I'll complete by walking.. i tik 1 hr shld be sufficient?

anywae, i'll start my plan tml.. and no, it's nt a April's fool joke.. i'll start my diet and budget saving tml.. I'll exercise more tml.. i had even bought exercise shorts already.. =)

Well, target by next yr CNY den.. and i'll look back upon tis post.. to see hw far i had progress.. Yup.. i'll.. It's never too late to start.. Hwaiting..

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If ever you had said / done something that had caused some misunderstanding, caused some unhappiness, what would you do?

If ever you had done something that had an indirect impact on yourself, what would you do?

If ever, you were being told by someone that there's a generation gap between you and the other colleagues that caused all these misunderstanding, what would you do?

here i am, feeling confused as well as sorry for what had happen.. which leads me to ponder back on my reactions / feelings / actions as to why i would react that manner.. does tat reali reflects upon my character, does tat reflects on my attitude? or does all the incidents happening after on and another have an impact on how i react..

I reali dunno.. i'm confused.. and yet at the same time sorry that i had caused such a misunderstanding.. but who will den understand the frustration that i went thru.. who will understand the imbalance feelin i had.. well, or maybe i shld jus apologized to you for tat incident.. i reali didnt meant it.. =S

 i was den a little shocked by how i tried to understand and tried to analyzed the situation from you.. ok, maybe indeed i'm pissed by her.. i might had a judgmental mindset towards her.. and at the same time, tis allows me to have an understand that there were times where u can feel tat attitude problem of mine.. but i have to agree tat i respected you.. i admire you.. and had always listened to you.. and since these analysis are from you, spoken by you.. i would accept it.. i would try to change for the better.. i would try to get rid of tat judgmental thinking.. jus cuz the explanation are made by you, and i truly believe tat you would wanna me get to the better of myself.. i would try.. i would want to do the right things and doing things right.. i will..

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i guess memories are jus essential for moving on.. to have memories, only then one can reminisce the past... but wad if the memories are jus overwhelming for me to handle.. i hated flashbacks.. be it from whoever..

today esp.. when i was in the cab.. goin by the usual  route back home.. flashback was coming back.. and tat's when i started to miss the route by hw i go back home.. and esp asked the cabby uncle to follow the route.. but even so.. i already had accepted that things are no longer the same anymore.. and i jus have to deal wif my memories, my emotions.. or maybe works' been tiring for me.. and i guess my brain n mind are tired le.. gone hay wired..

yesterday at my office, came a new colleague.. den i realize that Singapore is reali a small red dot.. the colleague is a mutual friend of my sec sch and my poly frenz.. oh anyway.. since he's my poly and sec sch mate, although he's a year younger den me, but i dnt reali tik i met him alot of times during our sch days.. well, and he's the first person tat i can be so friendly with when i met him for the 1st time.. oh yea, officially chatting 1st time.. and maybe having common topics ba, jus find tat he can be of a great chatting pal..

today was watching We Got Married, finale episode for Jang Woo & Eun Jung.. so sad.. *sob sob*.. and yes, i did cried with them.. and somehow when i got into the finale episode for the WGM, i jus find it a pity.. so sad.. like u had spend 1year or so wif that 'husband' 'wife' den u have to be separated..

and suddenly i have a tot.. tat if i had watched WGM earlier, and tat time could turn back.. i would wanna have an ending like WGM.. to be able to have a last pleasant day wif you.. to treat all emotions to be gone, jus a last day, going back flowing back the memories, to go back to where we used to go, to go to the first meeting place tgt.. to have an ending lidat.. but i doubt i have the courage and dnt tik i can face the situation peacefully i guess.. i dnt wish to have a repeat of my history, i dnt wish to find another chance or to face for another breakup wif my future bf.. but if i could choose, or be it i have no choice, i would wanna choose it to end like WGM.. i'll keep tat in mind, and hopefully, tat choice wont come.. for i cant bear another break up..

somehow i guess i had been stronger.. and sometimes tik izzit a bad choice to be stronger.. cuz in tat way, i'm kinda independent on my own.. dnt nid to depend on others.. or izzit my character.. tat i dnt like to trouble others.. i scared of troubling other.. or maybe jus cuz i'm a loner.. be it at work, in sch or wadever.. =S

[x][[DreAmY]] Chua Wei Ling Wendy
[x]051188
[x]Punggol Pri (1995 - 2000)
[x]North Vista Sec (2001-2004)
[x]Millennia Institute(Bartley Campus)for PAE 2005
[x]Temasek Polytechnic (2005 - 2008)
[x]

Likes.

[x]The beach
[x]The sun set
[x]Romantic scenes ~woo~ lol
[x]Chocolates!!!*
[x]Cheese Cake
[x]Ice Cream
[x]To have fun
[x]Music rules & Dance rocks
[x]

Hates.

[x]Liars
[x]To be treated unfairly
[x]Cats, extremely scared of them