wojiushiwendy

2011-09-01T08:18:00.002+08:00

==01092011=
guess time waits for no one.. and tis is so true.. stepping into the 4th quarter of 2011 is like jus a wink of the eye.. alot of tiks happen during tis yr.. alot of good, alot of bad.. but i guess tis is part of my memory, apart of me..

gonna end my first sem first term.. so fast 7 weeks gone le.. wif all those rushing-assignment crazy, trying-to-understand-what-lecturer-is-talking mode, the sleepy after work mode.. i guess all tis is jus the beginning.. zzz..

and of cuz there's a point of time where i felt if i had step intot the wrong step by going to study.. and tis reali made me reflect alot.. alot of wad i had done and wad i had not.. and after tis incident, i had some kind of conclusion in my mind..

maybe perhaps to u readers out there, might tik i'm selfish.. but tis is hw i truely felt.. and i'm sori if my conclusion had changes anything to the friendship circle.. and i believe that u guys are mature enff to understand me.. and i guess nth beats to cherish my own life, my own future, my love ones.. and maybe and due to my busy schedule/assignment/etc, i might jus go MIA.. haha..

well, nevertheless, i mus express my graditude to my dear colleagues (although i guess u guys wont be reading tis, but yes, thank you), thank you for giving in to me for my time schedule.. thx for taking care of me during tis period.. to tik, some colleague who actually gave me cupcakes to bring to sch for snacks.. =)

i muz thx you guys, my friends.. to hear me out when i needed you the most.. and thx for fitting into my schedule for outings.. i guess next time we'll meet is probably in Nov? Dec? i dunno...

lastly, thank you my dear.. thx for keeping all the understanding.. thx for all the support throughout.. and i'll thx u in advance for the buffet arrangement.. =) i guess i'll keep tis in mind and be motivated.. lol.. thx lots..

2011-05-20T22:11:00.002+08:00

hmm.. it's gg to be half a yr gone le.. as usual.. i'm looking back at my year's resolution.. hmm.. seems tat i'm not even half of the resolution done.. haix..

haix.. there's recently alot of negative stuff pulling me down.. there's work, there's home problems, health problems, and many more... @_@ hope all will be better one day.. or maybe i shld take a break.. away from work.. away from problems.. i oso noe tat problems cant be solved by hiding.. haix.. i jus nid a break, i'm stretched and breakin down soon..

not to mention tat there might be changes in the 'timetable' or the lifestyle soon.. hoping to get into the sch i applied for, and tat when my dear goes to work.. hmm.. i dunno if there's great or much changes.. looking at the situation now.. it seems like it might be.. by working shift works, i'm jus afraid.. i'm fearful tat i'm unable to handle..

i'm so sorry tat i'm showing my displease.. i oso noe tat u're also vexed by the nagging u received from home and the job scope of the job.. i'm sorry, just give me some time to handle tis.. i'm jus scared and afraid that we're going to be busy in our own timing soon.. i dnt meant to create more stress for u.. jus give me and give us time.. @_@

2011-05-09T22:28:00.002+08:00

woo-hoo.. at tis rate of the super hot weather, i tik i'll gonna melt from the scorching sun.. phew.. after u bath, u'll be sticky all over again.. zzz... oh well, alot tiks happen recently..

mostly are work matters.. i'm jus super sian bout the operation and hw the new supervisor is managing the work.. haix.. for the sake of the time, the pay and my working place, i'll endure.. X_X

haix. wif the sian-ness of work, i'm on frequent off tis month.. but now it's jus tat work is affecting my morale to work.. arrgh.. i nid a break.. i am feeling stretched now.. i nid a break.. ~.~

2011-04-19T15:17:00.003+08:00

Oh gosh.. it's April already.. i had not been updating my bloggie since 1 month ago.. and i dont even noe if there's still active readers ard.. well, anywae..

tis month had been a very happening mth.. wif work challenges, with personal life challenges.. and wif my clumsy-ness trait.. maybe i shall skip all those stuff tat had happened quite some time ago and jus jump to wad had happen tis few days..

went for a workshop for terrarium.. wow it's reali cool.. tiking of planting more of those little plants and to display at office etc.. haha.. ok la.. pretty interesting.. lol..

but i tik i have a trait of clumsy and careless.. to imagine i fell when i am alighting from bus on a rainy monday morning, yes it's ytd.. and resulted in such a pain i had now.. oh gosh.. all my plans for the holidays and prog all gone.. =( super sian and pain la.. haix..

2D1N 'Honeymoon' trip

2011-03-16T17:48:00.003+08:00

==100311==
went for a 2D1N relaxation family trip to Batam.. where we stayed went for a honeymoon package.. lol.. so farnie rite.. i gg honeymoon with my sister.. zzz.. but anywae.. the lifestyle there is so relaxing.. so peaceful.. so calm..

reached Batam at sg timing at 1.30.. but their Indonesia time is 12.30... faint.. greeted with welcome drink and towels for cleaning up purpose... den there's a bus to send us to the shopping centre.. AIYO.. the bus is so super small la.. i tik if we were to get any fatter, we cant pass the passage way le.. faint.. the bus came and fetch us back at 4.30.. 30 mins ride.. throughout the ride, can see students riding motorcycles to school, ppl walk ard, and very dangerous driving.. (for tis pt, i prefer spore more).. haha..

den decided to slack in our honeymoon room and wait for dinner.. meanwhile went for a free game of bowling.. where we actually 'rent' the whole bowling alley.. cuz there's nt much ppl ard, nt much crowd everiwhere.. haha.. den went for our dinner light dinner..

Ooo.. nice atmosphere.. nice food.. jus except for 1 cat tat suddenly appear from nowhere.. luckily there's staff ard who chase the cat away for me.. haha.. wif live band performing and dedications of songs.. nice~

went back the hotel room to slack ard.. where my sis got tipsy from tat glass of wine we took from dinner.. den decided to wash up and prepare ourselves for the next day..

==110311==
it's such a gd tik tat their timing is 1 hr slower.. so tat when i woke up at 9am (SG timin), it's stil 8am at indonesia side.. haha.. went for breakfast and there after to swim ard.. and for the first time i swam in a 2.20m pool~!!! for the first time, it's so scary.. cuz i dunno hw deep the depth is and i tried to dive down, but realise it's too deep den decided to continue to swim to the other side of the pool and tried to look for the sign for the depth..

it's 2.20m!! wow.. den after tat jiu began to swim wif ease le.. or rather wif freedom.. i jus feel like a polar bear.. hahaha... lol.. den went back to wash up and prepare for checkout and for spa session.. hmm.. first time being massage in the open.. reali open.. as in the spa centre is at lvl 3 of the building and u can have a bird's eye view of everitik.. and plus the blinds of the massage room is like quite hollow.. haha..

after 1 hr of massage.. it's so relaxing.. and super nua already.. den soon it'll be time for us to go home-sweet-home le.. zzz.. kinda miss the friendly ppl out there already.. haix.... Batam, i promise tat i'll be back.. i miss you, friendly ppl..

2011-03-09T21:15:00.003+08:00

time could change the feeling that one had.. the feelin from so down, hurt and upset and till a few days later it's all different feeling.. on sun nite there's tis home incident tat made me so upset and hurt as usual.. but now i'm no longer feelin tat sad le.. instead i'm feeling so super excited and happy..

i'm gg on a honeymoon trip.. But but but.. i'm gg wif my sis and my parents.. to a relaxation 2D1N batam honeymoon trip.. lol.. the content is so super funny.. shall post tat out soon ba.. =)

2011-03-05T19:09:00.003+08:00

==020311==
finally another retreat from work.. it's getting more and more sian and based on the amount of work loan and the issues of supervisor and the human-dog team..

anyway, cuz of some big mouth and the relocation of the manpower, almost all stuff are like so irritating to the colleagues.. it's like so unfair.. we have 3 on scheduled leave to go out tgt.. den another colleagues wanna join us, den jiu reshuffle the team and making it an excuse tat she could go out as well.. oh anywae, jus sian.. guess tis is the last time tat we'll be gg out wif her le ba.. anywae, went to TWG Tea Salon at ION Orchard for our high tea.. an exclusive date with the tai-tai.. =)

the area is reali quite a high class area.. jus love tat atmosphere and the service the crew presented.. the way they recommend the tea to you and the way they layed the food infront of you... anywae i oso forgot the tea that they recommend to me.. but all i noe it's a tea with vanilla & strawberry de.. =) nice..

everitik they sold there consists of tea.. like macarons.. Earl Grey & Chocolate macarons.. didnt get to try tat.. hmm.. maybe next time when we've our tai-tai outing again ba.. even the jam used for the muffins are all made from tea.. =) we'll try that wif other tea.. took the high tea set.. which consists 2 muffins, sandwiches and a teapot of tea.. nice nice..

next jiu shop ard Orchard area den there's tis household fair.. den went shopping with the mummy.. =) den sue was there telling me what tik nice what tik better.. den after which we jiu went Taka for more household shopping.. den suddenly there's a sudden tot tat came refreshing my mind..

tat i have a dream.. a dream tat i wish i could accomplish.. a dream tat i could have all different sets of cutlery.. for diff occasions.. for different styles of meal..

next the dream will consists of the tea session i had earlier.. i oso wanna to be able to enjoy the high tea at home.. with curtains drawn, with tea lights candles lighted, with a hot pot of tea and enjoying my tea and cakes at home.. wow.. i guess tat's a goal to work towards to.. esp where i'm so interested in tea and teapot now.. haha.. =) even have the urge of getting floral tea to brew at home now.. or to work harder to owe a can of TWG tea leaves... haha..

==050311==
dunno when tis interest started.. suddenly i feel like doing a lot of tiks.. i feel like taking up a half day course for planting bottled plants, i feel like brewing tea and owing teapot with nice tea cups..

and keeping fighting fish.. haha.. hmm.. let me go source out my stuff and to do preparation for my fish if needed.. haha..

oh my.. i'll be away for next week.. will be busy i guess.. dnt miss me.. =)

2011-02-27T17:32:00.004+08:00

==250211==
tonite was out wif office and other 3 branches for a IQC gathering.. together wif Sembawang BO, Woodlands BO, Yishun BO.. total of 21 tables at Tessensohn Civil Service Club Qian Xi Lou..

and also to celebrate Azri's 26th bdae there... of cuz, being the sporty him, he decided to dress up as a clown to fit in the theme of The Great World Amusement Park.. den we decided to sabo him.. by getting him to blow the bdae candles and there we smash the first bdae cake rite into his face... den throughout the dinner, we keep sabo-ing ppl.. be it for stage activities or for wadever we have.. haha..

ended the dinner with a lucky draw.. ok la.. can expect the amount of stuff we can get la.. we only paid $5 for a 7 course meal at tat restaurant.. lucky draw of $5 NTUC voucher.. haha.. den jiu home sweet home.. of cuz thx to dear for fetching me back.. if nt i'll be so tired le..

==260211==
woke up early and feeling so excited for the prog layed out later.. haha.. to wakie early and to eat breakfast... reach Universal Studio Sentosa at 10am.. den there after we conqured the first 2 outdoor roller coasters.. den after tat 2 rides, my breakfast almost come out le.. so we took family rides.. and we're (melissa n me) are so scared by the fake beetles there.. haha..

den we went further for more rides and more shows.. nice! went home sweet home after dinner.. haha.. haven had such a day and fun already..

Happy CNY/holidays/Valentine's

2011-02-15T13:56:00.004+08:00

oh great.. had been so busy tat i actually missed out the updating for CNY le.. haha.. wait till almost end of CNY den post.. zzz

==020211==
finally after so long.. i'm scheduled to work on morning half day shift.. but i totally cant rmb last yr did i work for the full day or half dae.. anywae was jus so relaxed to be working just half day and spend the next few hours slacking before family's reunion dinner..

there after jiu started all the busy works.. cleaning, dust tis, dust tat.. keep tis and tat.. in a blink, it's already 11pm already.. haha.. den went to deco the house and it's already 12pm already.. how time passes when we're so busy.. haha.. and my sis n i did a very crazy tik.. we went on playing game tgt!! till bout 1+ den we go slp.. haha..

==030211==
Happy New Yr~ Waking up early to help my mom wif the cooking.. den preparation to go to my grandmother's place.. stayed awhile den go back home to rest.. and continue back with my game.. haha.. den jiu left to go to dad's side de relative for visiting le..

while sitting down and mingle ard, my 2 cousins jiu entertain my nephew and niece.. having played for half a day, their energy had been used up and started to turn crazy.. the 2 little ones aged 6 and 7 began to build a box out of the kids ABC mat.. den they decided to push tat box into my cousin's head.. and he became a 'boxman'.. ok, i got to admit tat it's very amusing.. haha..

when we're otw back home, we created our own personal best.. to squeeze 10 people into a very small car.. i forgot wad model car is tat le.. but smth like a size of Honda Jazz lidat.. or maybe slightly bigger.. 10.. wow.. haha.. 3 at the back seat, 4 middle section, 1 passenger seat, 1 driver and 1 at the boot.. so very farnie la.. can reali faint ar..

==040211==
back to visiting again.. wow.. so many visiting.. haha.. tis time round, my uncle came to my place with my cousin running here and there.. when we are preparing to leave hse, my cousin stil came ard running looking for me.. so cute.. haha.. and she have a great memory too.. when we came to the place of my aunt's place.. she said to me tat she took photo tgt wif my sis and i at tat place.. wow.. i cant even rmb..

den played a while til i was oso tired.. den went to my dad's relative place where it's a visiting of her newly shifted house.. hmm.. quite cosy la.. she even have a fireplace! for a hdb flat, tat so cool man.. haha..

went to somemore visiting in the late afternoon.. den sat a while jiu go back.. by then, energy level low le.. zzz.. den with dear coming over to help me clear some of my cny goodies.. haha.. den go dinner..

==050211=
wad a nice long weekend.. haha.. wif the off day, went visiting even more.. haha.. went over for praying section den go visiting.. wow.. i keep eating n eating leh.. faint.. den went over for a movie den went back to dear's place to eat dinner and to celebrate his dad's bdae..

==11022011==
today is indeed a very special date.. 11022011.. i guess it's only once tat u'll get tis kinda of date..

a very special date, a very special day.. and a very special you.. and it'll be going to be always and forever..

==12022011==
today i'm late.. totally late.. and i'm being so sorry, so panicky and so paiseh.. letting the whole family of 7 to be waiting for me, and not including for the relative's side.. got delayed and pissed by someone.. arrgh..

den dear's godmother actually said smth quite true bout myself.. and which i'm starting to worry and be glad for some of the portions.. cuz the stuff she said are wad i'm expericing now and i'm glad everytik is all fated... but of cuz, destiny is in ur hands.. whahaha..

went over for visiting again.. den sat down chit chat here n there den jiu got dear to fetch me back home for family dinner.. wah piang.. all cny keep eating n eating n eating.. aiyo..

went back home and i tik due to the fullness from the dinner, all of us began to go crazy le.. haha..

so sori tat i'm late today.. oso so sori bout tat tone when replying u.. i guess i'm jus so pissed at work and plus maybe the way you replied so ya.. zzz..

==130211==
today went over to my poly lecturer's place for visiting and tis time round, she made home-cooked lunch! so fortunate.. haha.. went ard eating AGAIN.. den went to sit ard chat ard den with Jimmy the same usual started to disturb my lecturer's daughter.. cuz her daughter will called Jimmy the guai shu shu.. haha.. and refused to talk to him or to take photo with him.. haha..

den went over to The Cathay to catch a movie.. and AGAIN, i'm late.. zzz.. took cab to rush down.. stil late.. faint.. for 20 mins leh.. aiyo.. den went over to have Astons for dinner and sat ard to chat wif dear.. and there i'm presented wif my gift.. oh man..=) walk ard at P.S. den jiu go back home..

thx so much for ur gift! it was reali a surprise and it reali caught my surprise by hw much you had planned for the gift.. =)

==140211==
today was having a great headache at work.. oh gosh.. hmm.. so i began to slack ard.. but stil was the highest amount the qmatic statics.. can reali faint..

went back home to took a nap and to nua ard.. den dear came over and we there made our new creation.. spicy shrimp wanton ramen.. haha.. =)

nt needed for fancy meals, nt needed for the expensive dinning.. not even needed for all those unnecessary stuff.. jus you and me.. a very cosy evening nite... =) Muackz, with love♥

2011-01-30T23:03:00.003+08:00

now tat it is almost near to CNY.. i believe everyone is busy wif their own stuff.. be it doing spring cleaning, or izzit getting CNY goodies or preparing for the CNY dinner..

Sometimes i wonder.. hw come it's always during CNY tat we'll be tat busy.. it's like when it's normal days we oso wont be tat busy.. had been busy packing, trying to arrange smth to fit into a smaller storage.. hmm.. i oso headache, dunno hw to pack..

tis yr it's like everything had been done earlier.. goodies bought early, stuff done early.. thx to dear who went to bought the stuff.. =) the onli tik it's nt done is the packing.. zzz.. which i'm actually very sian bout..

today woke up early to go marketing.. hmm.. i haven done marketing for like yrs?! as in those wet market de type de.. hmm... feelin so sleepy and tired esp when it's so cooling the weather and i nid to wakie so early.. haha..

how's everyone's packing and preparation for CNY??

2011-01-23T13:16:00.004+08:00

==180111==
today was packing up my room, cleaning up my hse for CNY.. den i for the first time i tried making cakes and cookies.. haha.. it was success i would say.. nice~ and tat it had marked a tick to my own wishlist.. haha..

suddenly the sian-ness to work had started to come back.. wif the high mc rates, wif tat stupid dog barking and the stupid cases we encountered.. nvm, will see how it goes as the time goes by..

==220111==
hmm.. i tik i'm weird.. i can change from my colour theme from one colour to another.. changing my theme all along.. my tots, my wishlist all changes from time to time.. haix.. hw i wish i have a fixed colour theme.. and i guess now my colour is pink? oso nt very sure.. but jus a sudden liking on the character My Melody.. faint..

haha.. CNY is ard the corner and everyone is busy wif spring cleaning, buying goodies and buying clothing.. haha.. yea.. another reason for going shopping.. =)

HDB Hollywood Glamour D&D 2011

2011-01-17T14:16:00.002+08:00

==150111==
Finally the day had arrive.. for the HDB Hollywood Glamour 2011 at Resorts World Sentosa.. Decided to head for the movies before going on the D&D..

Got seated quite near to the stage and it was definitely a view from where we were seated.. but jus tat it's too harsh on the ears.. haha.. Had Mark Lee and The Flying Dutchman as the mc of the day.. sure to be entertained by them..

Ended the event at 11pm and by the time things were done, it's almost 11.30 already.. headed for home sweet home and was exhausted by then.. haha..

It was a very pleasant evening to have spent the night with you. Being tired le, stil have to take care of sickly crazy koala.. ♥

==160111==
for some reasons.. Wendy feels like a sick person.. wif little recovery of the cough and throat, it's sure needing alot of attentation.. Thank goodness that I have Sims3 to entertain me throughout (keke, and to be self-entertained while my dear is busy wif his game too)

But some things i reali dnt understand.. am i being tom-boy? or i'm jus unique? haha.. I like RC stuff, i like autonomous stuff, i'm even interested in the house spider that dear caught.. Ok, interested as in when spider is in the bottle.. I even tried sourcing for stuff that the spidey eats.. oh gosh..

Haha.. Ok la.. u oso shut down ur comp when u're being nudged la.. haha.. Jia you in keeping the spidey alive alrite.. haha..

2011-01-14T14:59:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. seems like the New Yr bug is still running ard me.. since New Yr til now it's like getting abit better, den got worst again.. seems like tis time round it's much much much more serious.. after taking the first dosage of medicine, i'm stil sick and worst.. went back to the doc, given second dosage of medicine, which is suppose to be finished by Sun morning and yet i dnt feel signs of recovery.. i stil cant breathe properly.. =( haix.. hope to get well soon to go out play and run ard.. i dnt like the idea of stuck at home..

tml wil be the D&D already.. so super excited for it.. haha.. Hope tml weather's will be fine ba.. =)

2011-01-04T21:17:00.002+08:00

hmm.. definitely a way to welcome yr 2011.. started it with a serious sore throat.. so sore that i cant even eat, swallow and even open my mouth properly.. all i did was to keep my mouth shut so tat i dnt feel the pain.. hmm.. luckily now after day 1 from taking medicine (medicine as in a proper medicine tat doc gave, haha, i used to self medicate) i felt much much much better.. =)

hmm.. there's alot of tiks i wanna do.. a lot of places i wanna travel.. but how to do them in such a short timing? hmm.. haha.. i dunno.. lets jia you in the new year and in the Rabbit year.. haha.. oh gosh, i forgotten all bout my new year's resolution and my last yr reflection.. haha.. nvm la i guess, it's the same ba.. haha.. diet diet diet.. lol..

2011-01-01T15:40:00.004+08:00

Today marks the start of Yr 2011 and saying goodbye to Yr 2010.. Hmm.. Work had been terrible for the last week.. Wad a way to end Yr 2010.. With tat super peak period from work.. now pending queue for work had increased from 30 to 60 numbers, and waiting time had gone up til 1 hr ++.. definitely a crazy way to work..

anywae oso welcome yr 2011 with a cold and fever.. zzz.. definitely a good way to start and end.. blahz.. haha.. nvm.. look at the brighter side of life.. Yr 2011 will be packed with events and prog.. haha.. next upcoming event.. 11 Jan 10, a retreat from work to celebrate Sue's bdae.. 15 Jan 10, D&D..

Wishing all a happy new yr and may all be successful den.. Cya~

Xmas~

2010-12-26T09:24:00.003+08:00

==251210==
Xmas to all~ With all the work throughout the whole week, finally i can get one day to be sleeping till i auto wakie de.. shiok man.. anywae went out to Marina Square to eat lunch at the Hotpot Culture.. Hmm.. and can imagine the calories added on when we ate the buffet for straight 2 hrs?!! with all the steamboat items, the cooked items, the chocolate fondue.. Yummy~

den went to walk ard Suntec area to kill time.. watching pets and animals kills my time fast and to keep me entertained.. watch the hamsters, fed the koi at the koi garden.. den make my way to Mac for a cooling dessert of ice cream..

went to Swissotel the Stamford for my xmas party.. Nt bad ba the place.. nice atmosphere and views.. den chitchat, eat again and to take our classic photos.. den i realise.. it's been a long time since i met up with them and although there might be some awkward at first, but tat feeling had soon be gone and slowly missing how we used to spend our time tgt in poly.. wad we used to do during sch times, event times and the laughter we had.. a great meetup i would say.. =)

SIAN

2010-12-02T21:12:00.004+08:00

oh boy~! oh boy~! oh boy~! there's another sian-ness found in me.. i'm jus sian bout the way ppl work.. i'm sian bout work, the way ppl reacted, the ugly society..

after the change of the new supervisor, it's like nt even the benefits to us.. of cuz ppl look for u for help, in terms of enquiries or to help in solving the case.. and it's nt meant to be questioning us, treating us like one of those-ppl-tat-you-shld-interview.. STOP asking us to do tis do tat in such a demanding tone.. den end up we have to handle the case ourself.. there's no logic.. no sense.. it's nt helping the counter staff at all... here we are rejecting the case.. den there u are, after interviewing each case u tel them ok can be done in your way.. dnt u find it contridicting? arrgh. i'm jus sian..

sian bout work, sian bout fun.. izzit i long time nv plan event le? lost touch? or izzit cuz tis time round the target group is adults.. and it's getting more complicated.. y i dnt find it fun at all tis time round? i'm suppose to be targetting on the adults for the xmas party.. but y are all my attention diverted to all the kids.. i rather spend time packing goodies bag, forking out money on my own for the goodies.. and all for the kids.. i'm jus sian bout the way some worked too.. zzz.. nvm.. hope for gd weather is wad i need now.. the rest, nvm.. wait til i'm on leave den.. i nid a break.. i nid a retreat.. i nid some relaxation and fun..

2010-11-27T21:09:00.003+08:00

Woo-haa.. Time is so fast and yet so slow at times.. It's like ages since i had my bday.. but stil, i'm stil in the November mth.. haha.. lol..

==071110==
smth struck me and might cause a permant change in my life.. maybe for now i guess.. another ligament injury.. faint.. and tis time it's during warm up.. hw sad.. and maybe i might nt be even able to continue on my workout training anymore.. nid to change to swimming le.. faint..

could tis be fate? i truely believe in fate.. maybe tis is fate tat i had met some of the members thru tis 2 yrs of exercise, shed some kilos, improve in my body health.. and maybe tat's fate for me to stop exercising and start on smth useful.. i duno.. is tis fate or i'm jus trying to convience myself tat it's alrite and not to be sad over tat? *ponders*

==141110==
it might be quite some time since ur bdae is planned by others.. but hope tat u had enjoyed and like very part of the celebration.. =) ur day to grow older, a day to receive the pampered.. a day to be joyful of.. =)

==151110==
Happy Birthday Dear~

==231110==
1+1=1 ♥

==271110==
Wooo-hoo.. Went to IT fair.. although didnt reali manage to get wad i wanna.. but i was worth shopping for.. haha.. went to Giant and IKEA after that.. had had alot of bring-backs.. tis yr office gonna have bbq for xmas.. haha.. fun.. guess everitik wil be impromptu tat day le ba.. hmm.. hopefully everitik wil be fine..
bbq pit - done
F&B - almost done
attendance - done

next check list, goodies bag for the kids! haha.. i'm a big kid myself and i'm so excited over tat.. haha.. and tml we'll revisit the place where we first met.. i'm kinda looking forward to tml.. =) splashy splash.. haha..

2010-11-05T13:46:00.008+08:00

==011110==
today was the day where another supervisor arrived to the office.. A very irritating person.. reali a 'VIP'.. everiwhere he go, bound to have ppl gossiping behind his back.. early morning, walking with his both hands to the back, den checking what's everyone doing with their pc.. and trying to show his concern or his presence by asking hw you and stuff lidat.. idiotic person..

==041110==
A very long weekend and a holiday seasons.. haha.. went ard to shop on a off day and got overly excited from what i saw in store and started to plan my outfit all the day til CNY.. haha... ya i noe tat's very far ahead but hmm.. dunno jus saw den jiu jus buy liao.. haha. =)

and den i realise tat i might have some of the symptons of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) when i was doing my household chores.. I tik my OCD is stil a slight one, with comparsions of what happen to the mess in my bedroom.. haha.. when hanging clothes, now i make it a point to hand the clothes all in one direction, with hangers facing the same way.. when i work, the items on my desk had to be arranged in the same position always; bottle right, pens left etc.. are all these normal? or they are jus part of trying to be neat.. haha..

==051110==
today is such a gd day where i can no nid to take leave to enjoy my celebration.. haha... went for movie and to walk ard vivo before meeting up wif the rest.. a day filled with pampering, showering with wishes... had dinner at The King's Louis Grill & Bar at Vivo.. where their menu is so cute.. dinner for the Queen & King, Princess & Prince, Knight's.. haha.. nice theme.. it would be better if the interior settings were to be more classical.. haha..

==091110==
today's definitely nt a pleasant day for me.. with a sprain during warm up on sun!!! warm up oso can injured... sian.. could stil limb ard in the afternoon de, den at nite jiu got worst.. so no choice.. have to go doc.. aiyo.. thx dear n sis to acc me to doc.. at least ytd was nt a very pain's doc visit.. zzz.. and now a granny can definitely walk faster den me.. =.=" hope to recover soon at least let me continue my plans for tis week? pls.. i hope i reali can make it.. com'on knee.. let's do it tgt..

[[20102010]]

2010-10-20T22:44:00.004+08:00

Hmm.. actually 1 mth of no post.. haha.. guess there muz be spider webs around by then.. haha.. Can say alot of stuff happen during tis few mths.. some can be gd, some can be bad.. to start off wif, an almost-faint incident tat's jus after dinner.. tat worry dear alot.. next mom had a fall at home resulting in alot of complications, cancelled trip n fractured wrist and of cuz us needing to do the chores at home..

alot of tiks happen.. and i totally believe tat tiks happen for a cause.. and it's a fate of life that such cause are happening..

==20102010==
it's a very nice number indeed.. some of my frenz even said at 8.20pm, it's even nicer.. haha.. well.. watched movie "Life as it happens" nice movie which shows that how simple a conversation wil lead to quarrels between man and women.. For man are from Mars and women are from Venus... The very basic way of communication.. And tat movie showed that all, but of cuz not to mention that the bond between them..

arrgh.. the haze is back again.. the humid of the weather is back.. n there i'm feel like dressing up for xmas already.. zzz.. i brought out all the 'winter-alike' clothing and wore 1 to office the other time.. and everione was fanning, sweating where i'm in a material much thicker then theirs yet i'm stil feeling normal.. zzz.. nvm.. tml i'll do another winter-alike attire.. haha.. =)

actually today is quite an emo day ba.. 2 reasons beind it.. but cuz to you, the meaning had changed and is a pleasant and wonderful one... =) thx lots.. Muackx~ ♥

2010-09-19T21:24:00.004+08:00

==180910==
today was out to bake in the sun, swim like a fish and be like a kid.. Den i realise tat it was reali relaxing to be out in the waters, esp where the location is so very far away from the North-East area where we lived in.. went to bukit batok csc.. there reali away from the normal buildings.. all's surrounding not many people, man-made waterfalls, fishes, water, blue skies.. feeling so relaxed and enjoyable.. =)

next went to have dinner at hg plaza.. and there i shocked dear by nt feeling well.. zzz.. the feeling of almost fainted is back after like 1 yr +.. but tis time round it's much more jia liat.. luckily the very first time had tis feeling, i didnt reali faint.. i tik it's almost exactly 1 yr ago's stuff leh.. oh man.. tis time it's veri bad.. so bad tat after 5 mins i stil get the dizzy fainting feel.. but thx to dear tat had been ard to take care of me ba.. thx alot le.. i might had given u alot of scared le wif tat pale face of mine.. zzz..

thx for taking care of me.. so sori to had scared u wif tat pale face le.. i oso dunno wat triggers it to be lidat.. oso thx for accompanying me too.. =) red lobster.. haha.. thx for everitik.. Shall nt elaborate more, in case someone might blush under tat red skin of urs? haha.. jus thx.. u noe wad u had done.. thx lots.. ♥

2010-09-15T14:56:00.004+08:00

I guess i better update my bloggie.. if not someone wil be waiting til the neck all long le.. haha.. lol..

Been so sian-ed about work recently.. all the excuses each n everione of them gave.. the work routine.. the stuff that repeats over n over again.. it's jus causing the sian-ness.. and not to mention those irritating lessees.. haix.. i nid a break.. i nid a break from work.. for my mind.. i missed my retreat.. i cant wait for next week to jus work for 1.5 days.. haha.. =)

解开我最神秘的等待
星星坠落风在吹动
终于再将你拥入怀中
两颗心颤抖

相信我不变的真心
千年等待有我承诺
无论经过多少的寒冬
我决不放手

紧紧久久与我牵绊这副十指扣
等到来生擦肩回眸再次的相守
苦苦痛痛爱的解救愿与你同受
却连一句我爱你都不能说出口

每一夜被心痛穿越
思念永没有终点
早习惯了孤独相随
我微笑面对

相信我你选择等待
再多苦痛也不闪躲
只有你的温柔能解救
无边的冷漠

紧紧久久与我牵绊这副十指扣
等到来生擦肩回眸再次的相守
苦苦痛痛爱的解救愿与你同受
却连一句我爱你都不能说出口

让爱成为你我心中那永远盛开的花
穿越时空决不低头永不放弃的梦
苦苦痛痛爱的解救愿与你同受
却连一句我爱你都不能说出口

让爱成为你我心中那永远盛开的花
说好了给我的永久这一次不要先走
唯有真爱追随你我穿越无尽时空
你会知道我等着你在千年之后
爱是心中唯一不变美丽的神话

2010-09-03T22:48:00.000+08:00

suddenly a rush of mixed emotions passed over me.. i dunno.. it's so hard to describe it's so hard to explain.. after work was extremely sad.. for our SAE Winson is leaving us for another office le.. so sad when he started to shake hands for those tat he would nt be seeing tml.. den i jus rmb one of my col's quote: "Sometimes you have to smile, hold back the tears, and walk away" Nearly cried when he started to shake heads.. den i jiu made my way out of office le.. hope tml i can survive after shaking hands wif him.. =(

there after suddenly another tik tat keep making me tik.. y izzit my character is lidat.. y at times it's so short fused? izzit due to genes from the parents? or the surrounds shape me to be lidat? i seriously dunno... or izzit i jus cant get the idea of being shouted.. and i hated it especially when all the emotions since after work had been pilling up til now.. i nid a hug badly.. wif all the emotions and there i'm listening to the song "mei li de shen hua".. =.="

i hated myself for being so fragile at times.. i hated it when it's always getting the scolding and shouting from u.. i'm oso working.. i had been scolded by the customers, but yet y dnt i felt the same way as that when u shouted at me and i'm being scolded by customers? it's cuz i care.. it's cuz i care and i mind.. i tot u're older u shld have more understanding den me.. i seriously thx my company for arranging the courses for us.. to shape us into a more listener rather den a judger..

how mani a times when u're back and didnt even realise tat i'm sick, i'm nt well, i'm feeling bad, wadever i'm feeling? tik u dnt bother.. all u did was to bring back wadever u had gotten from work back home... and for tat my mind keep having all the mixed emotions and i jus could not help by holding back my tears anymore.. stop testing my limits to where i can hold them back.. for i cant? i'm feelin stretched.. i might jus give way.. but... but i jus cant help by jus letting the tears flow...

2010-08-31T20:19:00.002+08:00

today is the last day of winson being our supervisor.. working under him for 2 yrs plus.. it is definitely a very pleasant experience.. but tml he'll be gone le.. gone to other branch office.. and there goes our good days.. we'll definitely miss him.. =(

anywae new policy, new rulling will always meant new challenges, more memory storage needed.. more understanding required.. =.="

Guess i nid my rest.. i nid my slp.. i nid to recover from my sian-ness from work.. i nid to take care.. can sense a bit of unwell? no worry i'll noe hw to take care of myself de.. if i'm sick le den hw i take care of u when u're sick? Sept wil be here soon! den wil be counting down to yr 2011 le.. aiyo.. so very fast.. zzz..

2010-08-26T08:10:00.002+08:00

Haix.. Y just some ppl work based on their own integrity and honesty.. Having to cheat and to cover one lie with another isn't it more tiring? It's jus so pissed to jus work tgt.. It's like you're in the team, but mentally not working.. den wad's the pt?

If one is rich, does it meant tat he/she would not be bothered bout work anymore? Y can one change in jus 1 nite, from struggling to survive on the amount of cash changed to a few of 10thousands in the bank? wif tat sudden amount of cash, does it meant tat u wont work properly?

It's jus so sickening to jus listen to ur 'stories'.. no more guessing of whether the 'stories' are true or how pathethic ur stories are.. jus sick of them le.. jus dnt come here and tel me some 'stories' or lies or wadever den next day u wont be here.. It's too happening dnt u tik so? Jus hope tat karma wil fall upon u.. I believe in karma..

2010-08-23T21:06:00.003+08:00

==210810==
Today was out walking around, slacking ard.. but somehow smth struck me.. would there be one day where love will ends? would there be smth like no more feelings? or excuses are jus given to end the r/s? smth to ponder on, if no more sparks no more feelings le.. if tat person is stil tat one u like/love or wadever, y dnt you urself jus put in more effort to make the r/s going?

==220810==
Oh, 原来Wendy 也有很傻很糊涂的时候。对不起啦~ =P Cant reali believe tat i reali had done tat mistake.. and thx dear for being understanding.. =) haha.. Til now i will stil go LOL over it.. Tsk tsk tsk..

==230810==
Suddenly it's like another 3 more mths... no no.. 2 mth plus to my bdae le.. and suddenly i have someone to celebrate tgt.. as in bdae celebration tgt.. new experience? but somehow oso have to take in alot of factors for tat planning.. hmmm.. zhen ne ban leh? Wad to do leh? Aiyoyo..

2010-08-20T23:45:00.000+08:00

==180810==
Had my usual dance today.. but wad's unusal is tat i've gotten a big and a small bear.. a small bear from the big bear! and had started out another chapter of life.. =)

==200810==
today had a farewell dinner wif our colleague.. somone who took care of me when i first entered.. someone who knew all our stories, our background.. somone who encourages and support us.. now tat's he's leaving.. it's kinda sad.. not to mention those who had worked under him for almost 10 yrs? Hope tat we'll keep in touch always.. =(

For someone who actually wakes up early due to the heavy rain, worrying wil i be late for work, wil i be wet, would i need to be send to work, do i need jacket / umbrella...
For someone who actually dnt mind the tired feeling after operations/duty and still have to take care of me..
For someone who took the trouble to jus send me to somewhere else to eat just because i'm sick of the food there and the weather's cold...
For somone who touched the heart by having the feel of floaty, the feel of a rollercoaster ride having full of adrenline, I ♥ you...

The waves, the sea, the sun and the sunset

2010-08-16T10:37:00.005+08:00

Zzz.. one blink of the eye.. 10 days past.. another blink, would be welcoming the yr 2011 le.. tat's fast.. now it's already in mid Aug le.. aiyo.. Reflecting back in yr 2010, wad had i done.. wad had i achieve.. guess i had reach none of my 2010 resolution ba.. haha..

==150810==
today was out to challenge my mind again? 2 classes.. fast music, fast steps, alot of movements.. alot of memory power to do.. haha.. when first learn the steps wil be reali like octopus.. haha.. once ur tempo off, jiu even more like octopus le.. haha..

but anywae luckily no rain after tat ba.. went to stroll ard back to pasir ris.. somewhere where i used to go.. somewhere i had my first camp poly camp.. sitting ard, listening to the waves, sea, beach, sand, clouds, blue skies, kids playing, sunset, stars.. it's jus the darkness and the cats tat's horrifying.. haha..

Although there's like nt a nice view for the sunset, but i guess when everitik sets in tgt.. it'll stil give a veri nice picture.. haha..

2010-08-06T22:09:00.002+08:00

Ahh.. 1 mth of no post.. oso nt sure if there wil stil be readers.. anywae it's always the same old routine.. work, rest at home, sweat it out, slp and the cycle jus repeats.. the onli differences is that at each point of my day i'll meet diff people.. and i guess tat's fate? it's already so fated to be walking ard passing by each and everyone..

anywae, my office de xiao mei had left us.. working as part time doing Reception and had been tgt wif us since March 10.. being the nearest age gap, we click along well... be it qns, enquiries, complains naggings, lunch she'll come to the usual few.. now tat she's gone.. kinda miss her de..

todae was serving someone wif a small gal.. nowadays kids are jus too smart... to checky i would say..
Me: "Mei mei, be careful ar.. the chair can move.. dnt fall down ar"
Gal: "Hee hee hee"
Den walks over to sit down infront of my counter
Me: "Did you go to sch today?"
Gal: *Nods and show me the tattoo flag on her face* "If i nv go sch oso dnt have tis (the tattoo) and cant paste"
Me: *Shocked* "oh ok"
Gal: "Hw come u dnt have (the tattoo)"
Me: "I nv go sch ma.. so dnt have lo.."
Gal: "Y u wan to work here?
Me: "If nt where i work?"
Gal: "At the front lo (waiting area).. accompany me"
Me: "Er, nvm ba.."
Gal: "Y u dnt work in NTUC?"
Me: " HUH? y NTUC?"
Gal: "Cuz my mummy working there"

i nearly fainted when i heard her replies.. nowadays kids are jus... and she had me have a sudden thought.. to go do volunteer services for the kids.. like help out or wad.. or even better stil, if i have a rich husband that will take care of my life, i'll jus quit and go work in a preschool? lol.. ok i noe i'm being random and crazy.. but i jus help it by admiring their innocent..

2010-07-24T17:20:00.003+08:00

==160710==

today was out wif my dear colleagues again for another retreat.. plus a birthday celebration for tat xiao mei in the office.. she'll be leaving tis July le.. sob sob... the gal who came in, 3 yrs apart from me so got veri close to me.. now she'll be leaving.. i'll miss her~! anywae went for vegeterian lunch at Serangoon area.. followed by headed to Cineleisure to watch the Eclipse movie and to shop ard for birthday gift for her.. den went to tcc for dinner and til the 2 colleagues cant stand the 2 young ones.. haha..

==171010~191010==

today was out to celebrate sharon's n nancy's bdae.. set off at 10+ to her place and took breakfast and WHILE WAITING FOR HER, can reali become STONE de.. anywae took her stuff to the chalet den bought stuff here n there and nua in the chalet.. slept while waiting for the time! haha.. den bbq and cut cake.. bathe le den jiu appear abit more energy.. den went back to play cards, watch tv/dvd to kill time..

even though i slp at 3am, i wake up at 7am automatically.. =.=" and woke mel and soon woke almost the whole chalet ppl.. went for morning swim and there after a visit to www.. den played til 6pm den eat dinner and go back to nua and play cards.. den watch dvd til all wanna KO le.. and say i swam from 9+ til 6pm in the rain! in the drizzle.. but stil i can stil get sun burnt.. how? i oso dunno how.. haha.. jus sunburnt.. den jiu again 7+ woke up and nua til 9+ before i started packing my bag and go back nua again.. nua til 10 den leave chalet for breakfast and soon to head back home, send by sharon's daddy.. thankx!

den reach home rest bathe, washed, den wait for sharon.. before heading out to marina sq.. den walk to marina sand bay and movie and dinner after tat.. den jiu felt the energy low le.. haha.. but it's reali a fun and relaxing retreat la.. =)

==220710==
today sharon's bdae.. met her after work to go for Flower Festival 2010 @ suntec.. it's reali her bdae luck ma? We're stil deciding to go for tat festival nt.. since it cost $8 for entrance fee.. jus den a tourist came by and infom that they have 2 adults tickets but no time to go visit the festival and today's the last day so offered the tickets to us. haha.. so sharon bought another 2 tickets using student pass and with a 10% discount.. so we jus spent $2 for the entrance fee lo.. haha.. after tat jiu made out way back home..

which makes me wonder.. 有时候庆祝也不需要一大批人群，简单也是可以很快乐的！所谓的简单就是美

2010-07-10T23:06:00.003+08:00

Today was out shopping while i overheard some very farnie conversations.. a lady wanna get smth from the shelves yet the items are too high up for her.. jus nice a teenager walks by..

Lady: "Hey hey hey, ah boy.. can help me get the items, they are too high for me.. u're tall enff.. can help me get 1 each of the colour.. thanks.."
Teenager: "Oh ok, ya I noe" =.=" for the teenager is like 1.5 head taller den tat lady.. cant understand tis ppl leh.. wad a reply to say.. aiyo..

the next incident that happen is like dunno y will happen.. i was already wearing jeans, 3/4 sleeve shirt.. yet when i wanna go back home, nt sure my luck or wad.. nearly gotten stalked!! by an uncle.. scared the wits out of me... he jus came over and say "hello xiao mei" so i pretend nt to hear him and continue to walk.. den i keep walking faster n faster... but stil stuck at the traffic light, i stil glance to c if tat uncle is stil there.. luckily he's walking to the next traffic light, but stil he was walking parallel towards my direction.. so when i took a glance, he stil looking at me sia.. and give me tat face.. oh man.. reali lo.. next time i wanna take up kick boxing class already.. haha..

how come i'm getting more n frequent hungry-ness? even if i had ate smth a few hrs b4.. =( took dinner at 7+.. 10+ i'm like so super hungry!! or my metabolism rate increases? nt sure too.. but hmm.. jus c how it goes.. haha.. =)

2010-06-30T16:05:00.002+08:00

now den i realise tat nt onli the weather does play a part in the mood of a human.. sickness would also be a considering factor.

Was lying in the bed the nite before.. guess the body is surrendering soon le.. wif goin-to-have-cold symptons, it such a torture...

suddenly jus the feeling of someone caring of u, someone to take care of u is jus present in the mind.. flashing n blinking out loud.. jus the tot of care.. n nth else..

and somehow tat actually link back to a couple of yrs incident.. so long and far away yet stil so clear in my head.. how nice if.. haix.. izzit the sickness tat make me go groggy or izzit i'm stil pending on.. *ponder*

2010-06-28T18:08:00.003+08:00

Haix.. with the so many ppl in Q and the so little manpower for staff.. everitik is a haywired.. den plus the complains ppl give when they're in express and yet they claimed express Q nt moving.. piang.. they forgot they jus arrived, the other Q had waited for 40+ mins stil nt their turn yet..

and another guy who spoilt my mood.. morning already a couple spoilt my mood by leaving sarcastic remarks.. and now tat guy.. fine fine fine.. take my name.. WENDY CHUA WEI LING.. by all means u wanna.. jus cuz u dnt get wad you wanna, u make a big fus.. jus cuz wadever i told u is all NOs you said i'm rude.. u wanna write ur feedback, i'll write mine too..

sian.. it's jus a spoilt mood.. i hated counters during the mth end.. i'm having headache and the sianness is there.. i hated it.. i cant wait til wed, for my escape from counter.. hope i dnt have to help in counter, and my other role will be gd.. =(

2010-06-25T14:00:00.003+08:00

Wow.. another week had past.. wif so mani tiks surrounding, time always travel faster..

ooo.. i had signed up for a charity walk.. New Moon Big Walk.. 5km.. yeah.. and i had indirectly donated 25 bowls of rice to the needy.. gd gd.. exercise and charity at the same time.. woo-haa..

and going to be 1 more week before July is here.. Yea.. getting more n more excited as the months goes by.. cant wait for alot of tiks.. alot of tiks to be happening.. =)

2010-06-20T23:15:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. guess the weather does play a part in pulling people's mood down.. was having shopping wif the usual ppl.. wil shopping will c alot of tiks.. be it branded stuff, words ppl communicated, stuff ppl say.. and i was wondering, izzit tat it's an age tik.. to buy branded stuff like wad my colleague did when they're in the 30's.. izzit common.. hw come ppl will work so hard for tat bag tat cost so much? a reflect on status? i dunno.. i'm jus tiking..

whenever we walk past the shop Cartier.. tat would always be the dream of the ladies.. onli once in a lifetime where it would be tat gift.. but now, the tot is so so so far away.. but hw come i'm nt so much into their jewelleries too? was it necessary? although it's once in a lifetime.. haix..

suddenly the emo bug is here to find me.. i felt like hugging, crying out.. hw i wish tat after we hug, cry and get hurt, all feelings memories and emo bug wont come to us again.. i wish to tok to someone.. i wish.. n i realise tat the 2nd killer words are "i wish".. "i hope" still remains as the 1st killer..

hw nice i have someone to jus send me smth associated wif cherry.. for i had watched a show and they say cherry accessory is given as cherry has the meaning of cherish.. the reading is almost similar.. and i keep tiking to myself.. i'm nt so demanding ar, i'm nt greedy ar, i'm nt materialistic.. but y.. tiks dnt happen as wad i had tot them to be.. i'm not desperade.. i'm nt earning for love.. i'm jus tiking.. sometik tat i dnt understand... and it seems like after so long i'm stil tiking.. =(

Tat's the song tat i keep tiking to myself.. dnt be a 3rd party's 3rd party.. karma will fall upon u.. but i could nt jus help me tiking.. the words if onli.. and tat alone can break me down.. hw much do i stand nw? hw stupid i would be if i keep pending on.. am i? i already do not have the ans.. the contridiction is enff to tear me apart..

*sigh*, i guess.. i hope those are the passing tot.. for i dnt wish tat.. and do not have the energy to tik the situation to be otherwise.. I'll rmb the quote tat i've gotten somewhere: "The birds of paradise will onli alight on the hands that do not grasp."

2010-06-19T20:04:00.003+08:00

Hmm... today's such a gd weather.. shld had gone out to bake in the sun instead.. but den again, woke up wif an aching body.. so decided to jus head for brunch and made some grocery shopping.. and den i realise tat i can eat and shop for 2 hrs.. onli shop at watsons and ntuc leh.. =.="

hmm.. i'm so excited over tat gal's bdae.. although it's 1 mth later.. but den i dnt wanna put so much hope and excitement into it.. jus in case the disappointment is there.. hmm.. nt sure la.. c how it goes..

mid june le.. reali fast leh.. i muz i muz i muz... to make it a pt to try out tat luge's new route by next mth.. hmm.. nt sure if i have tat luck nt.. to have both time and gd weather.. aiyaya...

2010-06-14T21:44:00.002+08:00

I realised tat i haven been updating my bloggie.. haha.. it's either the same routine or i'm jus too busy le.. haha..

anywae, GSS is here.. and only the 2nd day of June, i had spend 100+ le.. =( on clothes!!! clothes clothes n more clothes~ Gonna burn pocket soon, so gonna save up for my dearest tat i had been waiting for mths.. haha.. =)

==130610==
Sharon's 22nd is gonna be here soon, and thinking back... i tik all had a memorable and wonderful 21st bdae.. but i tik mine's jus is a spoiler.. oh well, maybe perhaps i might make up for my 22nd de.. had already the theme and makan place in mind le.. wait for nearer date to replan again ba.. anywae, was doing some proposal plan wif her while shopping..

Took afternoon tea, fruit tart with a pot of tea at Fruit Paradise @ Orchard Central.. Hmm.. tat's wad i call afternoon tea.. smth tat i always wanna do, but not successful de.. anywae while the midst of planning, i realise i miss planning.. badly..

and after so long of walking and shopping, we decided to settle down for the first meal of the day.. dinner @ pizza hut.. haha.. and after so long of eating at pizza hut's there's actually a mkting personnal who interviewed all customers who ate the new promo.. haha..

it's already the half yr gone of 2010 le.. wah.. tat's fast.. looking back at my resolution for the yr.. hmm.. nt even half is accomplished.. haha.. and when it's in yr 2008, they are saying about HDB's 2010 Punggol plan.. Now in yr 2010, it's the 2015 plan.. aiyo.. fast is fast la.. dnt so fast leh.. =.="

2010-05-29T23:24:00.003+08:00

Woo-haa.. it's been a counter frenzy today.. wif the super long Q.. and the laggy system.. and of all days, system had to be done today.. the last 3 days and plus it's a Sat!!! Wad a day.. =( morning down, 12.30 down again.. aiyoyo.. bet the ppl oso waited til veri impatient..

Wad's more to increase the Q.. was tat some smart ppl, tried to prevent the printer from jamming and caused the printer to be more jammed!!! haix... jus dunno hw these ppl work.. and hw come there's tis so called high ranked OIC tat jus refused to interview someone, jus cuz he dnt wanna to be scolded!!! Wad are we? CSO, frontliners.. wif pay as compared to urs? ours is peanuts alrite.. so wif peanuts pay, we're suppose to be scolded? Okie, fine.. i forgot tat i'm working in the service line as a CSOs and i'm paid to be scolded.. =(

but anywae, jus ignore.. nth can prevent me from lookin forward to my off dae at work.. haha.. =D

2010-05-17T22:41:00.005+08:00

wad a day.. reali.. and hw come it mux spoilt my day, jus when the day is going to an end.. y muz the case be at 4+ pm.. it's already bad enff for the normal few to keep clearing the crowd..

but den somehw, i'm nt reali pissed wif the customer i'm facing.. i'm more irritated by the OIC.. tat kinda of selfish stoned-hearted ppl wont understand the situtation of wad we're facing.. jus simply telling me tat you dnt wanna c the person, jus cuz he'll yell and scream infront of u and wasting ur time.. com'on la.. by doing so, u're jus reflecting hw well u are..

yesh, no doubt tat ur education level is high enff, pay is definitely higher enff.. but ur EQ, ur personality/character jus simply dnt match.. It's reali a very high extreme bet the lessees.. either veri grateful or very hateful.. choose it urself..

and wadever u told me on the phone, and when i look for u personally and when another OIC ask you, all was diff ans.. I reali felt tat pity towards tat lessee.. ya la true enff it's the lessee's fault to default in payment, but den again.. haix.. i have nth to say..

wad i can do is tat YOU.. YOU YOU YOU.. had trigger back my headache when it had jus recovered! and causing my feelings to turn upside down.. even when the lessee are demanding.. all 3 pairs of eyes all staring at me fiercely.. all 3 mouths speaking in anger, i can tel u.. i'm nt even panicky.. but den it's jus tat the tot of helpless is there.. even if i look for the DO.. i stil have to secretly go to another side of the room to secretly seek help.. but stil.. cuz of U!!!

but the tot of helpless.. no one wanna help me in handling the case.. the veri first time i felt like breaking down.. jus helpless and ARRGHHH.. i tik i had tat feeling before, but i jus simply dunno hw to overcome tat feeling.. much thx to my team leader who jus happen to be passerby and gave a hug on the way.. =( sobsob.. thx so much.. tat huggie made me reali felt like crying.. n of cuz much thx to my supervisor for helping me explain to YOU and to the lessee.. or perhaps tat's the first time he saw my expression lidat? i dunno.. anywae i'm grateful n thankful to you..

wad's the feelling i had when i'm in tt situation.. i dunno.. i tik i nid help from jus YOU? or i nid actually jus a veri simple tik.. a huggie? to hold me tightly giving me tat support i needed, tat encouragement? from who? i dunno.. could it be you.. 你还能让我感到有推动力的人吗？还能让我感到踏实感吗？还会是你吗？

11/5/09... ===> 5/11/09??

2010-05-11T21:54:00.003+08:00

As the previous post states, i cant hope on too much.. i cant be so excited over the next off day colleague outing.. haha.. jus in case smth crops up.. anywae today when i write the date den i realise smth.. if i switch the places of the mth n the date rite, i would be another yr older.. =.="

And i strongly believe in karma.. those who always took advantage.. do take note of ur own karma.. zhen shi de.. always taking advantage.. >.< And tiks happen for a cuz.. i may not be in some religion, but i do agree.. God knows.. and it could be tat i'll nid to work hard before havin a sweet retreat there after.. =) and i'm enjoying my today.. haha..

Anywae.. tml will marks the 2nd anniversary of my working career le.. hw time reali reali flies.. went to chin hong's 21st bdae celebration on sun.. den make me miss back the days tat i once had.. the days where we'll bond tgt for meetings for events for everitik! it's oso the birthday of Chocolate.. Chocolate, although tat's the very first and the very 舍得stuff i bought.. although all the hard work to get it done, i'm nt regretful tat Chocolate had been 'born' =)

2010-05-05T13:41:00.002+08:00

Izzit tat the more hope, the more eager u're, the feeling of disappointment would be greater.. izzit always the case? or shld ppl always aim higher for achievements but keep low for eagerness.. such tat when tiks turn out the unexpected way, we'll be surprised, shocked and excited?

somehow was very excited wif the workout tis sat.. wif so mani members, public all trainers along.. it's veri fun.. but den again, izzit the management tat's causing confusion to ppl.. oh well, i dnt even noe wad i'm tokin bout le..

somehw i felt the old me had gone.. the new wendy had changed too.. the psat wendy of going to crowded places, to makan dinner til late at nite after sch.. had gone.. and den, wendy had changed to the sticky type.. so possessive.. tik tik back again.. tat wendy is reali silly..

oh well, now i tik tat the old wendy had gone and the new wendy oso had changed.. changed to wad i dunno.. but i had jus finish watching a dvd.. "how mani 10 yrs of life we actually had? jus live ur live to the fullest wil do" looking back.. i had a lot of tots n saying.. but tat's the way it was meant.. to make me learnt and grow.. to be stronger..

2010-05-02T15:17:00.004+08:00

Hmmm.. can say i'm tired of work.. i'm sick by all the stuff the colleagues did.. i'm sick of their actions.. their actions made me felt so tired and exhausted.. Alot of 卑鄙行为tat irritated me.. Haix.. i tik i jus nid a break after all..

and i had another way of destress and venting out le.. i go aerobics.. haha.. and thx to tat instructor, all Friday's stuff was all gone.. n destroy my thoughts of doing back wad i used to do during JSXP 2009.. but i guess it's the usual gang tat's feeling sick n tired mentally..

hmm.. having another exercise workout on 8 May.. but hw come it's like no one wanna join cuz it's bollywood dance leh.. haha.. i used to tik tat bollywood dance is veri ah neh.. but they actually infuse wif aerobics.. so it's actually nt bad de.. oh well, nvm la... guess wil go ahead ba.. haha.. it's been lidat always too..

Tml another counter dae.. haix.. quite sian actually.. =(

2010-04-22T13:09:00.007+08:00

Haix.. was listening to the new songs of SHE, SHERO.. den realise tat i like the songs alot.. cuz the music/tune are nice and most importantly i like their lyrics..

s.h.e -少了一个人
专辑:time flies

朋友聚会吵闹的快乐
在她们离开以后变稀薄
走路回家回像山洞的窝
突然渴望有人能来接我
泡着热水在浴室赖着
思念却也被滚烫冒烟了
最后的简讯看到能背了
多久没有再联络一想还是痛

少了一个人宠爱我
朋友的爱成分就是不同
最难过是笑着面对背被羡慕自由
练很久的成熟也快遮掩不住寂寞

妈妈在电话里挂念我
上次欲言又止她还记得
喜欢装没事其实最累了
但我清楚很多事哭了也没用

少了一个人拥抱我
那种拥抱能够忘了所有
两个人就算下雪后赤脚逆着风
也不觉得冰冻还笑着比阳光炽热

少了一个人懂得我
能够体会我倔强又脆弱
不记仇温柔原谅我情绪太波动
用泪光舍不得融化我累积的寂寞
很固执无条件爱我从来没变过
在大吵的时候会抱着我沉默不动

s.h.e -你不会
作词:姚若龙作曲:郑楠专辑:shero
第一次拥吻以前我们找不到语言
但听见彼此灵魂多渴望永远
贴心后嘴角的甜摩擦后眼角的咸
一起懂爱和真爱的差
别你送的杯子里面还装着温热感觉
你给的每个纪念都排在窗沿
相机是牵手两年围巾是东京五天
戒指是又哭又笑的道歉
我不相信你心中现在她最美
你不会你不会你不会把我们的爱踩碎
我不相信你口中会讲出后悔
你不会你不会你不会不心疼
我拒绝被看见的泪
当初被激烈反对你安静却没妥协
对我更好来瓦解别人的偏见
我生气失踪几天我倔强口不择言
是你紧抱我当情绪沉淀
我不相信你心中现在她最美
你不会你不会你不会把我们的爱踩碎
我不相信你口中会讲出后悔
你不会你不会你不会不心疼
我拒绝被看见的泪
我不相信重来的幸福在脱轨
你不会你不会你不会留残酷让我面对
我不相信累积的回忆都损毁
你不会你不会你不会舍得我
留一滴想乞讨的泪

s.h.e -爱就对了
专辑:time flies

总是要流一些滚烫热泪
才能换来对于爱的体会
你看世界没有毁灭心也没有碎
其他的就交给时间解决
你当然可以重新再爱受
过伤的更懂怎样爱与被爱
所以别再理有他的回忆有空再回忆
离开你的只有他但是爱还在
听我说爱是对的错的是我们还没学会爱
就急着爱人而爱错人
可是爱就对了遇到下一个爱上就爱了
痛苦或快乐都是我的

我当然经历过你现在的感受
我想那是人必经的折磨 yeah
也许每个人都该是某个人成长的助手
受一点苦痛帮助她成熟
听我说爱是对的错的是我们还没学会爱
就急着爱人而爱错人
可是爱就对了遇到下一个爱上就爱了
痛苦或快乐都是我的

别探听他的线索别等待他会回头
爱不喜欢看人软弱
别继续把心封锁别躲在伤心里头
爱万一来了别错过
爱是对的错的是我们还没学会爱
就急着爱人而爱错人
可是爱就对了遇到下一个爱上就爱了
痛苦或快乐都是我的
听我说爱是对的错的是别人自以为懂爱
才会又爱人又伤害人
可是爱就对了爱了就值得爱这门功课
艰深但快乐爱就对了
听我说爱是对的错的是别人自以为懂爱
才会又爱人又伤害人
可是爱就对了爱了就值得爱这门功课
艰深但快乐爱就对了(爱来了别错过)

Hmm.. I like the last song in fact.. or rather all the 3 songs la.. veri 贴切..

2010-04-20T20:37:00.003+08:00

Aiyaya.. the sudden change in the weather makes it almost unpredictable and predictable.. afternoon most likely to rain.. but it might nt be true for some of the days.. but wad i noe is tat when i'm staying at home, it wont rain.. in fact, the sun wil be so hot and bright.. but when i decided to go out, it'll rain very heavily..

test and proven.. mon on leave.. but morning was so hot n sunny.. tot of going swimming, but the sun is too hot to bear.. so decided to stay home.. but when 3+pm, i felt like going out, it started to rain le.. same tik for today too. =( when gg back home, rain.. when the tot of going out to Compass pt, i saw the very dark clouds coming by.. den decided to cancel my trip n stay at home.. den the sky brighten up.. aiyaya..

but nt sure y.. i tik i'm old.. i'm fearful.. i'm getting blueblack at my finger joint w/o knowing y.. when at dinner, the stupid kitten walk pass my leg brushing against it w/o having me notice tat the kitten was walking towards me and cause me to have tat fright even til now!!

N the most sad tik is, i went to work w/o any wallet today!! wif no $$, nth.. luckily i stay nearby.. can stil walk home.. =(

2010-04-16T13:40:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. had been so so so extremely bz.. bz wif outing.. bz wif work.. bz wif makan.. haha.. after having a chat wif a frenz and after watching back the movie 'xia ri mo mo cha' den i realised smth.. 不是他不爱你了，而是他已经爱上别人了。不是感情变淡了，而是他的心已不存在了。 Quoted from xia ri mo mo cha, modified by me.. =)

hmm.. was actually listening to SHE's SHERO cd.. den was actually tiking shld i get the CD.. cuz the music is nt bad la.. but i tik i like the lyrics more.. it's more applicable to me, more 贴切 for the lyrics.. Hmm.. Learn learn learn.. learn to not be dependent on Hero.. but be your own SHERO.. haha.. =)

Oh cool.. was actually back to my previous self of making desserts.. making jellies, chocolates.. next time i'll try bread.. haha.. mini bread.. c if it works.. haha.. yeah..

another outing coming up tml.. but location nt fixed.. haix.. sian.. as usual ba.. dunno la. c how le lo.. cant wait for later's newbie class of hip hop..

2010-04-03T23:08:00.022+08:00

Hmm.. i guess it's all almost predictable for now's weather.. Sunny, den next moment it started to rain very heavily.. hmm.. n cuz of tat i slip and fell.. and bomb hit the floor.. n there is was bleeding!! Took about 3-4 days to heal.. aiyo.. and made me have a fear of walking or doing stuff.. making me extra cautious, and irritated.. n have a fear of when wil the pain/injury comes back..

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today was suppose to be gg to a drama wif our instructor and some members.. but den due to some misread of information, we ended up at the wrong location.. haha.. was suppose to be at jurong.. but we ended up at expo instead.. too far distance le la.. so we jus shop ard at expo instead.. den went to kallang to have some tea and den back to serangoon to have dinner.. fish head bee hoon.. yummy.. and tat's the veri first time i encounter the diet of jade..

she jus finish a bowl of fish soup bee hoon at 5pm, walk ard, and she can stil take dinner another fish soup bee hoon and ho fun at 6.15pm.. and there after she can stil go NTUC to get a packet of peanuts as snack.. aiyo.. but a veri fun day today.. =)

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hmm.. was re-listening to some songs.. den suddenly i felt some of the songs reali spoken my xin li hua.. aiyaya.. but anywae.. let me use some songs to post wad i'm tiking ba..

我爱他-丁当

他的轻狂留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊
对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好
我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来
我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱
如果还有遗憾是分手那天
让他知道我可以很好

一個人勇敢-卓文萱

你想要的我不明白
明明可以爱得很自然
两个人世界多简单
就是我爱你你爱我不难
你还是离开
你的决定与我无关
我能理解我不会责怪
这是你给我的答案
你要我接受却还要我等待
等不到一个未来
我不相信爱很难
没有一点温度残留下
来你失踪的爱我的幸福跟你离开
谢谢你那么坦白
原来失去以后比较愉快
不会再伤感
就算爱很难我也不怕失败
一定有一天我会比你想象更勇敢
你带走了爱我在原地不曾离开
谢谢你让我明白
我学会灿烂
一个人勇敢

一个像夏天一个像秋天-范玮琪

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音我的有口无
心我离不开darling更离不开你
你了解我所有得意的东西
才常泼我冷水怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形象保密

2010-03-29T19:21:00.002+08:00

Was browsing thru FB today and was actually readin some of the posts tat some had posted.. it had set me to tik upon some past of mine.. and it seems to be like a normal trend.. to be dating in a relationship for 4yrs ++ where marriage wil come appearing in the mind..

and it began to make me tik n ponder.. to ponder n tik.. and at times i felt so hateful of myself.. for when the tots came, i'll be as helpless and empty like nothing else.. i'll jus let the tears flow.. i'll jus let the heart ache.. soon it's like the feeling of mixture of bleeding heart and tears..

i wanna be strong.. i can be strong.. but y izzit tat i'm always defeated by the tots of the past.. the tots of impossible.. the tots of behind.. the history.. i felt so silly.. how many times of struggle had i gone thru.. but yet the other party doesnt feel anytik.. i'm jus torturing myself mentally..

somehow i envy tot in love.. in r/s where the dearest person will treat you like the most precious stone in earth.. where u can get the huggies, the warm, the love..

wad if i could turn back time? where do i like to most? to pri 5, where the veri first stage of mi hurting my knee due to ackward position of it? or back to where problems surface out? if i go back in time, would i stil have the same end result? wad if i'm stil missing you.. and stil tearing now... wad shld i do? who shld i go? wad if i'm stil missing ur huggie.. n earning to turn history around.. i noe tat wont be possible, bu shi ma.. i tik i'm jus affected by the weather, and the post.. the word "if" is jus a killer..

2010-03-23T22:02:00.003+08:00

Woo-haa.. Realise tat i have not updated my bloggie for 1 week le.. Well.. damn happening for tis week la.. damn busy too..

went to play wii on sat wif sharon and gang.. after which went to Music Dreamer's Live Cafe at Marina Sq.. Hmm.. nt bad.. nice atmosphere.. Listen to the songs there.. but there were 2 groups of singers on tat day la.. hmm.. and out of the 2 groups, seems like the ladies in today's gang including myself had like fallen in love wif one of the singers.. and it's like the same person in the 2 groups... whaha.. maybe it's jus how we felt tat dae la.. =) but had a great day tat nite..

after which Mon was bad! wif shortage of manpower stuff, and overwhelming customers.. it's tiring.. and after tat tried out a very smart-alex-movement exercise.. wow.. reali stretch to my extend sia.. felt extremely tired after tat..

today was the same.. counter busy.. ppl coming in n out... and today i tried to 挑战极限，after my achine body from mon's class, i went for 2 more classes today... the first one was shag.. totally shag.. but veri weird is tat after one sprint of 8 counts when doing the last routine.. i felt a sudden rush of adrenline.. the same goes for the next class.. tat's farnie n weird..

now i felt all tired and shag.. blahz.. tml wil be better.. =)

如果我们现在还在一起会是怎样

2010-03-16T22:03:00.001+08:00

怎样

我这里天快要黑了
那里呢
我这里天气凉凉的
那里呢

我这里一切都变了
我变的不哭了
我把照片也收起了
而那你呢

如果我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是深爱着对方
像开始时那样
握着手就算天快亮

我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是隐瞒着对方
像结束时那样
明知道你没有错
还硬要我原谅
我不会原谅
我怎么原谅

Y does the brain do it tis way.. y izzit tat i have to have nightmare ytd after reading my story book, dreaming tat the story came alive.. n yet today i had a dream of my family members leaving me.. making me felt so alone.. so lonely.. so terrible... luckily the emptyness went away when i woke up..

Another baking class up next.. woo-hoo.. dunno wad kinda cakes i might bake.. =)

Ouch Ouch Ouch~

2010-03-11T22:59:00.008+08:00

today went for my veri first guitar class by hdb.. hmm.. ended up wif painful n numb fingertips.. ouch ouch ouch.. but nevertheless, i find i tat ppl who sing n play guitar at the same time wil have a deep voice.. and tat makes the atmosphere nice n fun.. like a campfire lidat.. haha.. =)

wif all the diff policy chanes.. it's hard for me to rmb most of them.. i tik i nid more brain juices as well as memory power! jia liat.. yeah, looking forward to sat's outing wif sue n Jade to concert.. woo-hoo!~

never mind 词:黄伟文曲:左安安
说也奇怪
这些年来
不明白
我如何
忍受过来

一场期待
一片空白
人的心
就是这样狠起来
我们的恋爱
如果不失败
我们怎么会有
这么成功的分开
never mind you just go away
你以为
我一定后悔
已经有了
最坏的准备
走了这步
就举手不悔
never mind you just go away
你以为
我就会流泪
我会不会
(如果我不会)
你配不配
(你会不会)
勉强相爱
就像骨牌
守不住
倒不如
倒的精采
lt's okayl'm okay
我不用你陪
你不要误会
我只是有点累
却没时间崩溃

2010-03-08T16:48:00.002+08:00

Songs play a gd part in expressing too..

原来结果还是一样。我一直相信一次又一次的机会能改变，原来是我天真傻瓜的想法。

Amore Women's Day Out 2010

2010-03-07T20:01:00.005+08:00

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today was out to Amore Women's Day Out 2010.. An event in conjunction with a celebration on Women's Day.. Travelled all the way to ngee ann city early in the morning.. reach there and saw lots of women, in pink =).. started my first workout at 10-11.30.. Er, wad can i say bout that event..

it's cool, where u'll get to see all women working out together.. but jus tat the spaces are limited la.. and ended up i got my left foot stepped and kicked on the rite leg.. oso dunno hw these women understand the visual and the verbal language of stop and hold.. =.=" or left or right.. they jus simply do it on their way..

had a break from 11.30 to 4.. where i almost died in tat heat.. had couple of isotonic drinks, had yogurt and 1 bread for lunch onli.. =) met up wif members there and together wif our instructor, we went to had some drinks to cool off the heat.. it's jus too unbearable..

went back to the event at 4pm.. wow, it's jus simply too crowded... but tat dnace was nice.. better den morning session la.. maybe it's more fun lo.. =) but 5-6 tat dance jiu cant reali catch up la.. maybe nt familiar or veri tired le.. haha..

rush back to grandma place after 6pm.. to have dinner.. =) shiok to have such a gd feast after such long workout.. had a great time wif my cousin too.. she jus dnt mind i'm sticky all over and stil came up to cuddle.. haha..

tml's another day at work.. hopefully all goes well.. another start of my busy week.. =S

你好吗

2010-03-05T19:30:00.004+08:00

你好吗

温柔的时间

抚平我们的亏欠
过几天过几年

伤会好一点
多久没见面

孩子气有没有变
还记得我们从前

笑的那么甜

baby 我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗

温柔的缠绵

我也放下了依恋

过几天,过几年

伤会好一点
我收着照片

安静在盒子里面
回忆是你我剩下

唯一的关联

baby 我想起你你有了他

是否依然为了爱变的很傻

我想起你你有一个他

好久都没说的话你好吗

问候是我对你好想说出的话
现在你过的好吗
woo……ha……ha……
我想起你你有了他

2010-03-03T15:32:00.005+08:00

Had been a long and tiring week.. =( wif super mani tiks happening.. tiks tat are bad seem to be like always happening.. even my trainer can tel from the way i dance.. =(

a tiring week... definitely alot more to follow up.. alot more of headache.. alot more of accusing.. is tis the reality of the world? making ppl weary and tends to lose trust and faith, making ppl making use of the advantages of the rest and to climb higher or to do lesser jobs? by saying or thinking so, i tik tat i had not done enff mature thiking.. or the job had nt trained n mature my mentally yet..

and tis is the result in over tireness of the brain and mental.. i feel like going back to the past.. i dnt feel like the feeling of always needed to stay strong always.. i dnt wanna have tat feeling towards work, towards clearing the q always.. i dnt wish ppl to be looking up upon me.. suddenly the strong-willed wendy is lost.. suddenly i felt going back to the mermaid life.. i felt like having huggie and breaking down.. i began to redraw from the world, from where i used to believe in.. wad i used to believe in.. now i'm no longer in tat world.. where can i go to? where can i go now? *sobs*

2010-03-01T19:34:00.002+08:00

=( Wad a day to start the March 2010.. other den visiting my poly's lecturer's place on sat.. i guess life is horrible..

==270210==
was out for my dance.. and there after went to meet jy and gang at mrt station to travel to mdm's place.. and someone jus ps me or rather we ps her la.. haha.. cuz she cant make it in time.. and tat's SHARON ONG KAI MUI!!! haha..

now den i realise how much we had grown.. jus by looking at mdm's daughter.. last time the veri first time we saw her at Eng Sparks, with Jimmy disturbing her as usual.. now she's already in pri 3.. oh gosh..

had a chit chat session wif some long lost pals.. had a total of 5 diff batches of main com at her place.. the feelin is simply amazing.. it's even amazing tat we told her daughter tat if years to come, she'll tik who's all the uncles aunties comin to her place for visiting, we even said tat it might be Mdm's long term investment plans so tat when we were to visit her place in years later.. we'll all be having families by then..

oh well, after tt went to watch movie wif sharon, jimmy n ben.. it's long since we go out tgt lidat.. and even long for jimmy to entertain us along.. but poor ben.. for his hand is bandaged up.. but wil recover de la.. =)

==280210==
oh yeah, did i mentioned we were suppose to go to BodyWorld? Aiya.. now gotten the tickets, but no time to go.. sian.. today went to collect my event kit.. pretty nice the t-shirt, but jus tat it's free size and it's big for me.. =(

==010310==
a bad day to start off March lidat!! Arrgh.. was busy like hell and it's like octopus with freaking short circuited hair!! with Q more more more!!~ MUCH MORE.. like 50 leh.. 30 no. already dying le.. now it's 51!! Oh gosh.. Pls hope tml wil be better.. i cant survive counter lidat wif onli a few ppl helping clear.. i tik i'll die first.. X_X

2010-02-23T08:04:00.003+08:00

woo haa.. jus ended my super 'happening' week.. haha..

==190210==
back from CNY break, at first wanna go sentosa on 19 Feb after work.. but decided to travel towards central first to do shopping.. den travel south, happily took mrt all the way and when i reach vivo stil can go shop first den wanna go across the roof terrance, den saw it's pretty dark and cold outside..

was stil stupidly tiking tat luckily i brought along my jacket.. but slowly den saw tat's raining heavily.. =.=" wasted trip.. den travel back again..

==201002==
was out "early in the morning at 6 o'clock" *sings* no la.. nt tat early la.. but close to tat.. at bout 8+ travel out to TM for my workout.. end up, my instructor jus took his flight back from his home town.. den having replacement instructor.. aiyaya..

there after went to HQ to meet up wif Sharon.. den played pool to spend time before taking bus transport to Chingay.. alrite la.. a diff experience.. haha.. from participant to walk tat parade to spectator.. haha.. =)

==210210==
wanna go to sentosa for the flower festival.. but AGAIN, IT RAINED!!! even heavily tis time.. aiyo.. i guess it's fated tat i wont get to go tis yr!! Arrgh..

~Happy New Year~

2010-02-17T22:48:00.003+08:00

was finally back from all the CNY visiting.. CNY eating.. gain how much? i seriously dunno.. but hope tat my workout routine will reduce it soon.. =)

do i tik i have memory for dance moves? i dunno.. i can actually memorize n even at times the trainer wil have look at my steps.. haha.. tat's a gd tik?! i dunno.. but it's nice to have sweat it out sessions.. =)

and mid feb had actually passed.. soon will be mid yr.. den yr end again.. i began to get used to my busy schedule.. very busy life.. work, exercise, learning new stuff, play.. haha.. =) but come to tik of it.. i guess fate does play a part to my routine.. if fate decides who i should meet tomorrow, wad i would do tml.. i guess i'm loving the game of fate..

but i would tik tat fate and self is inter-linked in a way.. for one self, ur actions, decisions are decided on fate.. but fate will decide on your actions and decisions too... 命运是掌握在自己手中，但自己的改变命运. i began to realise tat i had alot of time for myself.. to learn new skills..

i did saw flashes of memory scene in my brian b4.. and slowly slowly the memory scenes are like guiding me to the direction of where my life will be heading.. i'm stil waitin.. waiting for tat veri last scene i saw.. and tat would be the day where my life would be complete..

2010-02-11T11:29:00.002+08:00

==100210==
Now i totally believe tat life is just full of unexplained stuff.. Today woke up especially early.. den had the time to go doll up.. den i noe why my body wake up so early.. it's cuz to prepare for later.. now there was tis audit check for coutner stuff..

n den.. so nicely fit tat the audit is here at my counter!! Piang.. sori la ppl, most of the stuff he ask i dunno reali noe hw to ans.. cuz it's beyond my scope le.. but den it's jus so strange tat it's all seems to be like fitted lidat..

n i totally believe tat's the game of fate.. and how interesting the game can be.. =) somehow there are bits n pieces of memory tat flashes over my mind, but it reali did happen in reality too.. tat's fate i guess.. n it's fated how i met all the people in the world.. =)

==110210==
today was almost the CNY week le.. but hw come i nv felt any CNY mood leh.. counter busy.. sick wif all the working ppl.. arrgh.. i started to hate when all have to relay on those same few to clear crowd, to take the last number! Sian.. hope tml wil be better..

2010-02-03T22:20:00.014+08:00

==310110==
went to hq to celebrate hdb 50th anniversary.. did help out for the big day.. Actually for us it's extra ppl walking ard onli lo.. reali nth much to do.. okie la, except for those admin, main event ppl la.. but my role? jus to walk ard basement 1 for crowd control.. crowd control where all guest are from the same family of hdb.. =.="

anywae after tat went to ikea.. haha.. it's super packed for sun! n gotten a couple of kids chairs~ bright colourful kids chairs.. i'm veri glad and proud to announce i bought 2 of those kids chairs... n even when i wanna try on the chair, the mei mei was staring at me sia.. for 'snatching' her chair.. sorri la mei mei.. =D

==010210==
today was suppose to be packing after my collection of storage boxes from ikea.. er, i can jus said i did tried la.. from 7 to 8.30.. den touch up here n there.. den somehow i oso dunno how, i landed up on my bed at 9.30.. the most amazing tik is tat i stil rmb to set my alarm for next morning! And drop flat from 9.30 to next day 6!!! half way, i tik ard 11 ++, was slp talking to my sis la.. which she cant understand oso.. oh great..

had dump alot of tiks.. be it physical or mental.. had a change of phone as well, and obviously most of the storage is gone as well.. A new year, a new start.. was looking back on my old phone msg, and then smth struck me hard.. it's almost 1 yr of dragging n delaying before the real prob surfaces, and came.. for the 1 yr.. had it been tried to amend the crack? i could say no.. if nt there wont be today.. 1 yr.. it's either i can tolerate alot, or i'm real stupid or i stil tot and believe tat it would be better.. how silly.. but nvm.. new yr coming.. but tel me, y do i stil cry and felt the ache when i happen to bump into some stuff i wrote.. some stuff of the past.. =(

==020210==
great! operation set, theatre rm set.. all it need is jus support, mentally emotionally physically family.. i hope i can give u the strength to carry on.. pls.. dnt jus give up cuz u're tired and in pain.. jia you.. i love you granny~ =)

==030210==
today was walking where i bump into my aunt.. where she actually told how my grandmother complain.. complain bout her daughter-in-law, bout my aunt herself being hot tempered.. i guess slowly tiks are making her tik in a negative and upsetting her.. she even commented tat "if it's so hard to be a person.. y stil continue on?" for tat moment i reali dunno hw to ans.. all i can do is to give u mentally support..

there are alot of tiks she's nt happy, yet scared of dispute.. jus cuz of the harmony in the family... i jus hope u wont give up.. jia you~

{Pondering}
What if i were to die tml? who will actually rmb me.. who will feel sad.. even if sad, for how long? I dunno.. somehow i tik i had strighten my tots.. if it had happen before, it's already a blessing for me.. as least i had live my life fully.. i had studied and play hard at the same time.. during poly i learnt new stuff, new skills.. i had worked, wif all my effort my hardwork..

i had enjoyed my daily lifestyle, i enjoyed my music and dance.. i had known great bosses, colleagues, friends..

regrets.. hmm.. dnt tik i had any ba.. but even if have, i noe tat i had life my life to the fulless~ I had love someone deeply with all my heart, with all the care given, regret is tat i had yet to meet someone to care and love me deeply, my Prince Charming.. I had the love of my family, regret is not being able to deco my home.. i've fallen in love with music and dance, regret is i'm nt able to do tat again if i were to die tml.. But i noe.. and wil try to keep everyday of my life fulfil and living it to the fulless~

Jia you granny~ I give you strength to continue on.. keep living~

The song were i told myself to be strong previously.. now i delicate the song to you granny.. I give you the strenth..

Faintz

2010-01-25T21:35:00.002+08:00

Oh gosh.. I'm getting my dizzy spells again.. Arrgh.. Y Y Y??? I ate healthy, i slp well, i nv knock my head ar.. but how come? I duno.. i shall nt turn my head here n there le.. scarly i faint ar..

Need to eat apples tml.. =) i guess there is always a reason for smth.. i had apple pouch for my MP3, i use to love drawing my Miss Apple on the E2 whiteboard n books..

Oh well, i tik i needed my rest too.. cya..

2010-01-22T08:21:00.005+08:00

Arrgh.. Y izzit always this case.. Just when i tot i'm strong enff, i break down eventually.. Just when i tot i had long thrown the thoughts, the feeling of weakness jus took over me..

Just when i noe tat it's nt even worth it to tik bout it, the feel of ke xi came over.. just when i Aiyaa.. i dunno..

But all i noe is this kinda of tots keep visiting my mind once n a while.. and after which will be expelled out automatically by my brain cells.. haha.. okie, i'm stil crazy.. which means i'm fine..

i dunno.. but i tik all those haix.. nvm.. it's alrite.. =) I am strong.. and I can be strong and will be strong~

Oh oh, i reali tik tat i'm crazy to a certain extend.. maybe some might tik tat i'm saddist, or 'pervert' ba.. but i kinda miss the ache i got from dance + P.E during sec sch.. I miss the feeling where the ache from dance will go away when i ran.. but next moment the pain will be back when it's climbing stairs..

i tik partially i noe wad's wif my exercise routine, exercise determination i joined the club.. and partially is tat there would be someone teaching the movement, i tik i can learn better..

oh well, anywae.. had a great time tis week.. a great and tirin ones.. mon did OT.. =.=" tue my dance where i encounter the shy incident with my trainer.. =S, wed another dance.. den it's i tik i'm one of the regulars la.. and mi n the trainer are reminding each's steps.. sometimes she forgot she look at mine, sometimes we look at hers.. a fun trainer la.. n wif her, i dnt reali feel the age gap of 12 yrs bet us.. haha.. =) she's definitely sexy and having her own style.. Yoo-woo~ Thur went for swimming..

n now here i'm tired and sore from all muscle aches.. but i oso notice tat i had a time lapse for my soreness.. normally ppl is today exercise, when wake up morning will ache.. i used to have tat in sec sch.. but now i dnt... today exercise, i wake up stil alrite.. in the afternoon den the ache will come slowly.. it's either i'm getting slower in response or the movements are nt so hectic enff.. haah..

anywae, off for shopping later~ Yoo-hoo! *And it's great to wear smth diff once in a while* =)

shy

2010-01-19T22:43:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. today was on course.. haha... i didnt noe tat it's all on smth tat we dnt even encouter at the counter.. but preparation for the future de.. gosh.. tot it's all on admin work.. jia liat.. was lost throughout.. =)

But anywae had a couple of more serving of food recently.. and i tik maybe the dust is irritating my skin leh.. or if nt den it's allergy or if nt sensitive skin le.. aiyo.. troubles here n there.. so went for 2 classes today.. haha.. Some trainer very farnie n cute de.. now preparing for CNY liao le.. Getting us all in shape for the CNY.. and after slimming down process after CNY..

And all of a sudden, felt so shy at class.. haha.. cuz it's like the class for dance is extremely packed.. and i happen to be at the front.. but it's new routine tis week, so all are lost.. esp when the steps are nt familiar.. and there was tis move where i could not see properly and have to reali look at the trainer veri carefully.. er, belly movement btw.. so it's like i'm practically looking at the area between the tummy to the hip.. so it's like pretty embrassing.. haha..

and den when he asked us to dnace on our own.. there was tis instant where he was staring at me to see if it's correctly done.. Whaha.. hmm, oso *shy* cuz it's rotation of neck, rotation of chest and the hips.. but tat nod from him is jus perfect =)..

Jia liat.. i tik i'm going crazy le.. tml latin dance~ tml on course too.. hopefully i noe and understand wad's the course all bout.. i'm beat.. til den, cya..

Woo~

2010-01-18T21:13:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. After so long.. finally found the song of cool down exercise my trainer uses.. Stil have 1 more song to go.. But it's jus tat when the song is played, the way tat he dances will be shown in the mind.. esp where it's slow movement, plus belly workout and plus it's him.. Whaha.. =)

Okie nvm bout me.. Sooner or later i'll go crazy over my dance, music n trainers.. esp after a long day at work today.. Haix..

2010-01-17T10:09:00.004+08:00

Hmm.. Recently been packed with a lot of tiks.. work heatic, counter busy, counter jam, ppl mc, i guess it's like all a trend already... Of cuz, some are genuine, some cant help it.. but it's jus dragging the counter performance down tgt, n it's pretty 1 word.. SIAN..

N adding on with family problems.. it's surely making my plans go haywire.. Financially and physically.. I oso dunno hw and wad i can do to reduce her pain.. falling while on the way to the bathroom for someone in the age of 74 it's surely headache.. ended up wif an injured right hand and plus dislocated shoulder joint..

N i guess operation shld be arranged soon.. Although she mentioned that no operation is needed due to she wont be carrying heavy stuff.. however, w/o the operation, even basic stuff like brushing teeth and wearing clothes cant be done.. and it needs about 1-2 mths time recovery in hospital.. oh man..

the pain she delievered through her eyes.. i noe how painful it is for her.. wif one little move of the muscles it's painful.. =( jia you ba.. after operation all will be smooth already..

x_X

2010-01-12T22:11:00.008+08:00

Hmm.. wad a bad dae today.. it's all in a rush, all in a hectic way of life.. n to add on the day, i woke up wif a bad start already.. woke up wif an allergy.. From wad i oso dunno.. due to the cholorine? or due to the dirty waters in the pool? I reali dunno.. after so yrs of swim, my first time kana allergy from the waters.. n it's causing my face to itch, red patches and a bit swollen..

work's busy.. stressing wif onli 6 counters to handle.. wif the working colleague, i can say onli both myself n another colleague of mine can clear coutner fast.. but stil.. today's cases are shitty.. arrgh.. 3 long cases.. In short it's a difficult day.. Even if i tried to clear the counter fast, i'm stil lagged behind.. today reali nt my dae.. stil kana asked by my TL.. but i noe her style.. she jus ask for confirmation.. haix..

Oh great.. once again.. the dance had proven to remove my stress at work.. jus by tat 眼神 will do all the work.. arrgh.. i nid to get my medicine for my face tml.. n hopefully i can get it tml.. if nt i'll nid to borrow from my colleague.. it's so itchy!!! ARRGH

2010-01-11T13:27:00.003+08:00

==080110==
Finally after so long a hard work, had decided to take off.. And went to play with another sotong frenz of mine.. AND WAITED FOR HER FOR 2 HRS!!! OMG.. I nearly turn into stone at KFC.. =.=" But anywae tapao KFC breakfast for lunch to eat later..

went Top One KTV from 11 til 5.50pm.. n nearly froze to death.. haha.. there after, went to CSC @ Tessensohn for the bowling clinic.. hmm.. onli 6 ppl turn up.. out of the 20 few.. aiyo.. but nt bad la.. better concentration power for the trainer..

==090110==
today decided to go for a outing to the zoo together wif 9 yrs of frenzship.. tgt wif sharon n nancy.. we met at amk at bout 9+am den reach zoo bout 10+ and greeted morning to most of the animals.. and tat they are still in their lazy mode.. nt so active..

but slowly slowly after the animal shows.. when most animals are awaken.. our energy level turn low already.. =( and it's almost time for us to go back..

but i guess spore zoo.. u'll see me back in 2 yrs time.. to visit the panda!! wait for me ya~

==110110==
today is the date where there are so mani 1 & 0.. but hmm.. nt sure y.. aiyo.. the pain is coming back.. arrgh.. but cant be leh.. i oso dunno i have so mani pains.. haix..

nvm.. i'm lookin forward to the water later.. the light rays.. the water.. the splash.. =) n of cuz the dance tml.. =))

2010-01-06T12:11:00.003+08:00

I dunno.. Suddenly i felt tat i'm veri lost.. i dunno hw to handle the situation now.. Tiks done, tiks rejected.. tiks being pushed away just by a simple dunno.. it's jus stressing me up..

i oso duno hw much i'm the unlucky one.. tat's kana 'picked' for such an incident.. Can someone reali enlighten me.. i reali miracles and magic occure in tis reality world.. yes.. now it's like all the ppl are nt happi.. i'm stress up, TO nt happi, lessee EVEN NT HAPPI.. n alot more..

how can i manage the invisible stress coming from all over? i dunno.. suddenly i dunno y tat i cant handle.. could dance destress me? for temp now i guess.. ytd the dance reali destress me.. but now? it's back again.. n much more worst.. Wad shld i do when i feel like breaking down.. i dunno..

although can be solved.. by changing the whole set of keys n lock... but it's jus tat the process of tis stuff is like.. arrgh.. i dunno.. n now i tik i keep tiking bout the stress til i'm getting back to old pain.. wad shld i do? suddenly all tiks are like negative in tiking.. pain pain pain.. all checked all normal... so do i stil have the pain always? do i stil have the symptons in the future? wad bout my future?

oh my.. i tik tat it's affecting my tiking.. all so negative now... i'm sori Mark.. ytd's ur 'magic' is over.. n hope today Jade can bring me her 'magic' and i hope later's dance session helps.. sigh =(

Aww~

2010-01-05T22:04:00.003+08:00

Today was so hectic.. everiwhere was a mess.. Til the clock struck 5pm.. it's worst.. i oso dunno wad shld i do.. the item is already nt wif me.. i already send for despatch.. but they didnt receive it!! just in 1 day.. she oso couldnt ans my simple question.. all she said was all was very light.. all papers.. no keys.. it's keys for godness!!! I have 1 key, sue is 2 keys.. total 3.. how could it be very light and only papers?!

and she jus ans me "i dunno, i send for despatch already.. i onli help in despatch".. OH PLS.. u're always doing the wrong tik at the wrong time!! Despatch.. I tik i'm assigned by my TL to do so.. but yet u're snatching it from me.. fine! N making it a mess everiwhere.. Now i hope tat my key will grow keys by tonight and appear.. *pray*

And tat i guess all my trouble/all worries are gone after my dance workout.. It's sweet! Aww~ It just so sweet.. And it just melts.. I tik i'm reali crazy.. =))

Crazy over dance n music.. n n n.. =)

Jia you everione~

2010-01-04T13:35:00.002+08:00

Was reflecting on the conversation that i had with my trainer.. den i realise tat human beings are reali had of flesh and blood.. in a sense tat it's rather weak and strong at times.. And all it takes to change the mentally is just in the mind..

i dunno y.. but somehow when she told me bout her past.. her story.. i actually can sense all her story, her pain her feelings throughout.. n my heart actually went all out for her.. izzit cuz i'm from the dance too? and most of the emotions i had felt similar, but of cuz nt to her extend la..

n was tiking tat for human beings.. they could be so easily stress out and despressed by work, family, life and love... what if all stress comes together.. nt all can overcome the stress.. the faces that we see each day.. the smile we received.. do they reali shows what had been happening? for clowns/performance groups, esp for dancers.. it's nt possible to be true..

once on stage, all u have to present is tat smile.. tat feeling to the audience.. i noe.. cuz i personally have to be forced to smile once on stage performance.. so maybe tat's the reason tat's i like dancing? but the pain behind each and everi dancer.. no one will noe.. unless they speak up themselves..

oh gosh, i reali tat i'm being naggy n abit of emo-ing.. but the tot jus struck me while i'm reflecting on how human beings can get so weak.. jus hope tat everitik will go on well.. Jia you ba everione~

Jia you~

2010-01-03T17:41:00.007+08:00

很高兴能够认识到你，也很高兴今天你能把我当朋友一样对待。把我当朋友一样的聊天，诉苦。也没想到你们的隐形的压力有多大，也需要在工作时的那种爆发力和体力精神。虽然我也感到意外今天的聊真的让我佩服你！

从一个很普遍的话题到你的过去，到现在的你。当你说着说着眼眶也红了，我也只能抱歉的说我不是很会说话，没法说什么来安慰你。但我能深深地体会你的辛苦和压力。虽然我经历过的没有你那么糟，但那种疲惫的形态我能了解因在怎么说我也是跳过舞的人。

加油吧！为那种跳舞的精神态度而跳舞。但愿你能在未来呈现出更棒的舞蹈！我虽然不能做什么，但我能在这里默默地支持和鼓励你100%忠实的学生。因为你是我跳舞的榜样！加油！

Although i noe tat she might nt be reading the post.. but it totally reflects how i felt.. i thank you for tat.. and hope u can excel even better!

Welcome 2010~ Lets disco & dance~!

2010-01-01T19:00:00.003+08:00

Welcome Yr 2010~ The first day of 2010, how did u spend your day today? Was it relaxing? Was it fun? Was it having a party?

Well, i had my fun share today.. To welcome the New Year wif a gd start.. Was dancing on the first day of the yr! And it seem great~ =) But too bad the timing of the class doesnt match my working schedule.. unless i take leave.. hmm.. nt too bad huh.. whaha..

Lets disco~ Lets Dance your way thru~ Lets party~!!

Welcome Yr 2010~!!

2009-12-31T18:22:00.009+08:00

==291209==

Today was out wif my colleague to a dinner at Carousel by our company.. alrite la.. so called sponsered la.. but stil have to pay at staff price.. To celebrate the New Year~ Took cab and sponsered by sue.. cuz everione was waitin for her while she's busy making up.. haha.. anywae nt bad la the food.. but abit expensive la, cuz nt reali alot of variety la.. if normal weekend pricing for dinner is $60++..

Chit chat throughout the dinner and saw how the staff helped to wish/sing bdae songs to the bdae star.. =) quite unique la..

==311209==
Yoo-hoo~ the last day of 2009!! Was working full day today!!! Stil til 5pm.. the first half of the day was horrible.. so mani ppl rushing tiking tat we're onli open half day.. so the sec half of the day was free! On n off ppl den come over.. haha..

anywae was doing some reflection during tat free time of mine.. wad had i reali done tis 2009.. last yr at tis day wad was i doing.. den i realise tat my 2009 is a very happening yr.. and tat i had too much of a time wasted here n there.. for i dnt plan stuff for myself..

tml's the new yr.. 2010! I'm gonna have New Yr New Resolution!! I gonna spend and enjoy the time to the fullest..

-=2010 New Year Resolution=-
1) To slim down and tone up
2) To loose another xkg to my weight in sec sch
3) To have love
4) To get engaged in a healthy lifestyle
5) To spend time with myself! Be selfish/self-centered~
6) Be happy and stay happy
7) To be myself~
8) Live for myself and live for music & dance~ =)

Happy New Year to all~ May all be success in Yr 2010! =) Yoo-hoo! Off to dance tml again~

Woo-Hoo~

2009-12-28T22:18:00.003+08:00

==251209==
today was out to exercise again.. and saw my trainer in a diff outfit.. hip hop style and a xmas hat.. reali diff feeling.. but it's fun.. but he's onli the temp trainer for tat day.. =( nvm, maybe i shld try it out again next fri wif tat perm trainer la.. n c hw it goes..

and when i got back home, i spend the xmas nite wif myself, my sis and LIZARD!!! And we caught the lizard!!! such proudly to say.. but it's onli in i tik more than 30 mins? wif lots of insecticide, sweat and of cuz screaming.. Til we can reali see the lizard go unconscious den regain conscious and back to fainting.. haha.. and when it regain conscious, it reali will shake its head.. like wad u saw in cartoons.. but it's reali farnie tiking back la..

and extremely horrifying in the scene.. when it moves abit, we spray insecticide and scream.. but luckily it fainted again den we managed to catch it, wif tongs! haha.. 'nice' experience i guess..

==281209==
wow.. today was the start of the peak period.. and.. i guess at bout onli 9.30am, i had already collected $9K.. and a total of $30,800 at the end of the day with 181 cases!!! Woo-haa.. If onli tat one day's collection is my savings or pay.. Wow.. shiok man.. =)

hmm.. i'm so looking forward to 6 March.. whaha.. where all women will gather tgt for a women's workout dae!!! Proudly to say i joined 2 of the events.. whaha.. nice nice.. and i had lost weight!! Yeah.. after much effort...

but i tik i have to be grateful.. i thx u for calling me fat, to be flabby.. tat's the reason y i joined so mani stuff.. and cuz i joined, i met my trainer.. and i tik tat they are my motivtations.. and tat's maybe the reason to alot alot of tiks.. i thx u for tat..

alot of tiks actually i wish tat u would actually do previously.. but u refused to.. now tat it's happening.. maybe perhaps it's nt a bad tik after all.. oh well, it's nt a time for me to get emo.. I've lost weight and am looking forward to 6 March.. Woo-hoo~ Music and dance rocksX.. Time for Carousel buffet wif colleagues tml.. =)

2009-12-25T20:54:00.002+08:00

==231209==
Today was on leave.. Went to HQ to meet Sharon and at the same time went to visit my ex-coll.. one is ex-col, one is my grandmaster.. haha.. complicated ba.. anywae bought some cookies over for them as well and their workstation was filled wif xmas deco and moods.. unlike my office, stil nth reali special.. Oh oh.. gotten gifts from my colls too.. =)

Den met Sharon den go to Far East for her manicure.. while i shop ard and grab a bite.. den went to cineleisure to watch movie.. Princess and The Frog.. A simple animation by Walt Disney but yet some parts i watched wif a complicated mind..

Like there was one scene where the main female cast, her father's dream is to open an restaurant and people from all over the world would visit their restaurant and drinking the soup that they made, but mother told her. It is important to have dream, but dnt forget the most important part of life.. And tat is no other den love and family..

After the movie, travel to TM to meet sy for dinner.. okie la.. couldnt reali finish the dinner.. but i did enjoy the moments of dinner time ba.. and esp i guess the other waiting guest shld hated us very much.. from 7++ we sat til bout 9++.. haha.. occuping their table for tat long and the Q outside is long too..

==241209==
Today thx to someone who said tat she's feeling emo and tat can feel she's rather stress out.. i decided to meet her again, after work.. met up at bout 2+ den grab some bread, water and there we are out in Sentosa!!

Had so long since i step into Sentosa.. Went for 2 luge & skyrides.. took the first luge down.. den went to walk ard the beaches.. hmm, veri much changes.. but some of the places caught by attention too.. and i would like to reali find some time sit down and relax.. Haix.. Nt the rite time ba.. cuz it's pretty romantic de *shy*.. can sit down n gaze the stars..

Anywae, went to walk ard the sands, played ard.. took photos.. walk into the shallow waters.. more shoots.. And somehow the emo thoughts struck me.. and all the way it brought with me together with the skyrides and esp the 1st nite luge ride with the cold breeze.. i guess a 5mins ride had so so so much thoughts in me throughout.. and the thought was gone when it's during dinner..

Suddenly felt tat way after looking at the sea, feeling its breeze, waves, water, sand.. No doubt tat the sea can calm me down.. but it oso bring back memories.. the un-exercuted plans, the thinking ideas, the past experience.. It's suddenly pulling me down..

Pulling me down so much that it stil in my mind at times.. the times that had been shared, the future.. but at times, it also had given me courage and encouragement to do the tiks i like.. to look at others w/o having that sense of guilt.. i tik i'm in love, in love with music and dance~ Esp for my trainer.. =)

The lil game of Fate

2009-12-23T10:24:00.003+08:00

Haix.. I guess tat it's all fated ba... or rather at times fate will play a lil game wif us de.. be it wrong time wrong person, wrong timing or wad.. tis is the game of fate..

Hello Xmas~

2009-12-22T09:29:00.002+08:00

hmm.. 3 more days to xmas.. but y izzit tat i've got felt the xmas mood yet? there are no plans for me to plan.. no ideas.. no outing.. no nth.. i find ppl veri farnie.. when there are times to plan for the outing, time doesnt allow.. now tat time and financially allows, it's nt the rite time animore..

i guess for this mth of Dec.. a cold 'wintery' mth of xmas.. if onli tiks haven change.. i guess ideas still will run thru my mind.. to have chocolate fondue, to have cuddling under blankies with hot chocolate.. wif 'fire place'.. but it's jus.. haix..

anywae.. tis mth is a growing fat mth.. wif all the makan sessions, hw nt to grow fat.. had gone for a couple of makan sessions le.. 2 more coming up.. aiyo.. jia liat.. Yr 2010 is going to be here soon le.. i guess i'll be havin new New Yr resolutions soon ba..

i'm missing the water, the light rays in the water.. but i'm afraid of the coldness.. lidat i haven master the skill of a true mermaid yet.. =(

2009-12-10T21:21:00.003+08:00

Had decided to change my MSN nick for gd.. there is no longer "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit.. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay" for cuz the Leaf's departure isn't cuz the Wind pursuit nor cuz of the Tree didnt ask to stay.. it's cuz the Tree grew new leaf and decided to give the energy/food to the new leaf.. oh well, was saying tat i wanna update on the course.. haha...

People often live in their own paradigm.. and a paradigm is the source from which your attitude and behaviours flow.. it's like a pair of glasses, which affects the way you see everitik in life! But anywae, there are also the effectiveness and the efficiency.. mani people see effectiveness as the more you produce or do, the more effective you are. But is this reali true? True effectiveness is what is produce and the capacity to produce. And effectiveness lives in the balance between produce and capacity..

Reflection.. a need for personal growth.. There is a gap between stimulus and response and the key to both our growth and happiness is how we use that space. By Frankl, a psychologist.

Time mangement.. The key to time management is not to priortize what is on your schedule, but to schedule your priorities...

There is a saying.. To begin with an end in mind.. as tis encourages individuals to live their lifes with vision, mission and purpose and it's the onli by having goals in our lives that we can lead an enriching life.. Begin with an end in mind.. of cuz the end would be smth posistive.. but sometimes life jus doenst tat saying to take place.. haix..

2009-12-07T21:30:00.002+08:00

Today was attending tis course "It's in Me: Growing a culture of excellence".. there the faciliator was discussing with one topic that stimulated us or rather me in tiking.. reali deep tiking..

The topic goes like this.. Imagine that you are driving to a funeral.. You parked your car at the carpark, got out of ur car and locked it. You walk to the funeral wake and saw many people had been sitted. There were familiar faces ard. You decided to walk to the front of the funeral, to the coffin (for you had forgotten whose funeral u're attending). And you saw urself in the coffin. There you sat down together with the rest and it is time for the funeral speech . Ur family members, closest friend, colleague took turns to speak about you. Now what would you reali like to hear from them?

What are the expectations that they would have from you? What are the values about yourself that you wishes them to describe about you? This topic reali sets me thinking.. If I were to die, what would my values be? What would they discuss about me? And i believe tat it's this tiking tat made ppl have the values and mission of their own life.. And i guess i'll set mine slowly..

One tik i like to be going for courses is tat the way the faciliator stimulates ur brain tiking.. to sets you tiking upon smth.. to let you realise.. to let you be a better self.. There's a quote given by the facilitator that I would like to share.. maybe tml ba.. Tml another day of brain stimulation.. after which will be followed up wif my physcial stimulation.. Yoo-Hoo~

BTO Welcome party

2009-12-05T21:59:00.002+08:00

Today was doing the first BTO Welcome party for our SengKang residents at Buangkok MRT.. everitime when almost all the reisdents had moved in, we'll have one of those Welcome party for the residence there..

Well, today morning stil have to work.. so when it's after work, had to report to the event straight.. of cuz, lunch at Sakura Buangkok.. haha.. more like zi cha lidat la.. but anywae, jus enff time to report la.. First welcome party i joined since the day i started working.. i tik partly is cuz last time i considered too much.. considered that if i go, half day would be gone and would not have time for building of bonds.. oh well..

pretty much like E2 events.. did registration.. den there after, move to the dinner catering and help in the serving point.. Jus tat the diff is tat for tis time the serving point, when the food is running low, the caterer will exchange with another plate of dishes!! woo.. and reali can see the 'Singaporeans' in the Singaporeans!!!

Fancy ppl asking for more more more food, like they had not eaten for the past 1 week!!! jus cuz it's free.. ppl snatching for ice creams, one boi can take up to 8 tubs of ice cream.. cuz it's giving out for free (without needed to exchange with coupons).. and one table will have at least 15 tubs.. Aiyo.. I guess when we, the servers, left the food point, ppl will rush to 'ta pao' food away..

but overall a nt bad event la.. jus tat as compared to e2 event, it's simplier for helpers la.. in the sense tat they dnt have briefing and debriefing.. and manpower will be office ppl.. no shooting of pointers as the residence wont have feedback, we dnt have feedback debrief.. but no briefing, maybe oso due to the fact tat all of them had helped out in all BTO welcome party before.. so i guess all experienced and experts~!!

Now Wendy is tired.. with hand oso aching from bowling and from the serving of food.. aiyo.. and will update with tml's dinner again.. =)

2009-11-23T21:27:00.002+08:00

it's seems like so poor tik.. cut my fingers while peelin potatoes.. when taking dishes out from microwave, accidentally touch the sides of the door.. cauzing a red mark on my arm.. zhen shi de.. but y izzit tat the cut from my fingers, even tough it bleeded.. but the pain izzit as much as compared as to my heart..

Oh well.. n i guess i'm down wif flu.. i hope it's jus flu and nt other stuff.. N i have the feeling of going shopping again!!

Before i go crazy, i tik i shld go slp n rest le.. if nt cannot go out even more jia liat.. til den, cya..

2009-11-21T21:40:00.000+08:00

Suddenly i tik Wendy is mad.. so into retail therapy for herself.. oh my.. but today i've found smth tat i'm looking for.. *delighted*

2009-11-18T16:57:00.003+08:00

today was half dae.. was suppose to go swimming.. but hmm.. guess my muscle ache had formed.. so well, anywae, skipped my swimming session and decided to go Giant Tampines instead.. haha.. found alot of stuff! alot of goodies!!

had a mini chocolate fondue, some oven dishes, and some plants.. haha.. and on the way, it rained!!! So heavily that i can see the builidng across the road.. haha.. and there's tis stupid guy which i thought back and irritated me..

bus 27 is so narrow there. and he's standing in my way.. i'm trying to move to the rear, and he's at the exit area.. wif my big bag and stuff, u shld noe tat both of us cant move tgt.. he stil stubborn stood there, moving onli a lil.. den okie fine, u made my way.. and he realise tat i cant get through.. "oh, tat's big" he said.. wth? doesnt mean tat his gf is so skinny and small size that even if she wore jacket, she's stil freezing and tat i'm big size.. tat's big, wad's tat suppose to mean? my stuff i bought is big or my size?! basket..

oh well, nvm.. i shall c the weather and my mood later.. if all is fine, i shall go for my dance.. to add on my muscle ache.. bring it on man..

gathering cum ktv session!

2009-11-14T11:51:00.002+08:00

ytd was out wif my colleague after work to go for a gathering cum ktv session.. the first time i went to ktv wif a group of older generation.. haha.. oh well, had dinner at pizza hut.. hmm.. nt bad the food, but i guess we're too hungry, so hungry that it became the opp way and we cant finish the food.. and i gotten a surprise cake for me.. =) they tricked me to go away wif my colleague and there after they planned for tat.. a dessert cake from pizza hut.. Yummy~

den went to kbox.. hmm.. nt much of movement space due to the 4 big tables in the center.. but i guess we had a variety of songs.. from english to malay to chinese to oldies.. but sadly to say, the songs i picked are all those songs related to my feelings.. but, i had promised myself tat after tat singing was done, i'll pick myself up to find back the old joyful, cheerful and bubbly me..

and i'm reali glad tat during tis period of time, i've gotten so much support from the ppl ard me.. i've gotten listening ears from my frenz, nt to mention support as well.. i've gotten calls from frenz, meet up to see how i'm doing.. i've gotten hugs from my team leader, wif some tears from both of us too... alot.. which made me feel tat i reali had an impact on the surrounding ppl.. when i'm sad, they would oso feel the same.. Jia you Wendy!

I'm so TIRED~!!!

2009-11-10T21:49:00.002+08:00

oh great.. now i'm beat.. so tired tat i love tis feeling.. it reminded me of my sec sch days.. where after my dance training the feeling is almost the same.. but of cuz sec sch days are much more tiring la.. esp the dance training is tough, stil have PE, and homework to do..

anywae, i guess i'll convert all my energy into smth else i guess... i'll wanna live a mermaid life.. but i guess mani will tik wad had mermaid got any link.. mermaid live in the sea most of the time and she spend her life swimming.. i would like to go swimming.. to swim all away all the thoughts.. but den, if u guys stil rmb the mermaid story?

the mermaid lives in the sea, but she fall in love wif the prince from land.. after much obstacles, the mermaid and the prince got tgt.. but wif smth in exchange of cuz.. the mermaid's tail in change of the legs will have to give up her voice.. and i tik now i'm the mermaid.. who had gave learnt to live life with the 'prince' on land.. but now i guess i'll have to return to the mermaid world for a moment.. to take a breather.. to swim ard.. n c how..

and yes.. tml i'll be going swimming.. another step closer to my mermaid world~!

Another bdae celebration~

2009-11-10T08:24:00.002+08:00

And i guess there's a feedback that i nv update my bloggie.. Maybe due to the recent 'happening' events that i lost my mood to update..

Ytd went to Bugis Junction to celebrate my belated birthday with JingYao and Sharon.. Ate at the Japanese Western Restaurant.. Nice place, nice atmosphere... Dark, but nt too dark area to dine in.. Dark, but lamps and candles litted at the tables.. aiya, in short nice~ *P.S. It would be better if you were here*

The chicken in cream sauce.. yeah~ Nice recommendation from JY.. sauce nt too creamy, wont get sick after eating the sauce.. chicken is like abalone, just nice portion but $15+.. i tik those bigger eaters wont get full ba.. haha.. the cream sauce is nice that i could even match it with baby sweet corns, smth which i hated the smell of it.. haha.. wonderful ba..

there after, went to eat mango shruddel.. OMG.. another nice stuff, other den my cheesecake stick.. haha.. hw to grow skinner lidat? Zhen shi de..

But anyway, had lots of support from my frenz during tis few weeks.. which i really appreciated their support, hugs, comfort.. Give me some time to slowly release, den find back myself.. the joyful and active me.. thx for all support!

Happy Birthday

2009-11-05T20:41:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday~ =)

A new beginning.. a new chapter of life.. a new fold to the adult world.. a day where i'm legally able to sign on all official letters.. to make decision and to take responsibility on my actions and stuff..

Oh well, mani tiks happen within tis period of time.. so much, so sudden tat i'm unable to handle all at once.. Anyway, c how it goes..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY~

2009-09-24T21:03:00.004+08:00

Tel me about it.. so much of toking, so much of surface talking.. but in fact, had u guys actually seen hw had we suffered? hw hard it had been on us?

a fruitless and no pt harping meeting i had today just doesnt solve the issue.. in fact it actually showed that the surface work is even more obvious..

Being said on the feedback, the problems we faced, how can we reduce and help each other in one way or another.. but actually behind closed doors, how do we know that it's the way we felt when we spoke up that is the actual meaning transmitted across to the others few?

it's reali hard, and tat we do not have other much a choice den to be sandwitch in between..

2009-09-13T22:55:00.002+08:00

我以为已经过了许久，我也因该能够适应了习惯了。原来不是如此。

原来这一切都是刚刚开始而已。而且，事实已摆在眼前，残酷冷漠的事实。不能改变我自前有多天真有多傻。一切的时间都已浪费了，不能回头。

以为一切我的时间就属于你，一切的安排，所有所有的事。原来这也证明了我有多天真，一句话一个字都显示了一切。

原来这才是刚刚开始的事情。

Stoopid Bus..

2009-08-27T08:42:00.001+08:00

Damn pissed off by tis bus today.. not onli the bus is late, making me waited for it for 20 mins.. the bus doesnt allowed for easi-link payment cuz BOTH machines ARE DOWN.. ONLY CASH payment.. was rubbish.. and oso the bus is mooving sooo slowwly..

alamak.. Anywae.. weekend is coming up.. and it's already filled up wif events, activities le.. haha.. busy busy.. lolz.

2009-08-24T19:34:00.003+08:00

Wow.. realised that i had not been posting anything for quite some time. Well, things were definitely getting on slowly back to track after being sick for 4 days.. down with high fever.. yes, high fever and w/o having me the feeling of drowsy.. and without me knowing i'm actually down with fever of 39.3!! I jus felt normal throughout.. Oh well, tat's past and i've recovered!

Had been wondering the way of life sometimes.. So farnie and dishearted that the way some of the colleagues work.. Fancy taking action before permission!! Although that stuff that was taken away from me isn't a very expensive or valuable object.. but it's in fact, the courtesy of asking before taking possession matters.

I had this empty box of Ferrero Rocher on my desk and i just saw it before going to the counter.. and in the next moment my box is gone and den one of my colleague was asking me "Wendy, is that Ferrero box yours? Do you still need it?" To me, if she was asking lidat, 90% is that my box is taken by her and chances of me getting back is zero. "Ya, it's mine, y? u need it?" "Oh, i'm thinkin of getting the box to place those rubber stamps at the counter, they stained the new counters already!" =.=" Took le den ask for permission..

Well, nvm la.. jus take it as it is.. dnt wanna get wrinkles over it.. But i'm missing the sunlight rays in the water, i'm missing the splash i get.. okie, getting so random.. haha.. I miss the fun!!

2009-08-02T23:24:00.001+08:00

If our life is controlled by just a on off switch, where everything is peaceful. There will be no arguements, conflicts, jealous, hurt and sad feeling. When each of us are communicating, how many times would we actually open up our hearts, having a truth feeling to chat with each other? And how mani times out of the conversation do we actually meant something else than what you had spoke, how many times is for the benefits that you converse?

Actually sometimes i find that human beings are very funny. When we are doing one particular stuff, you would want others to believe in you. But when the rest is doing the same as what you are doing, would you believe in the rest as what the rest had believed in you? Life isn't like Sims where everything is so easy, the more Sims chat to each other, the more friendly they become. Everyday go to work, there is no chance of unhappiness except for Sims betrayal.

But well, reality is always harsh and hard. Today I felt the loneliness, the quietness around the surroundings that even the slightest sound seems so loud and horrifying. It's going to be the next day soon, just in 24 mins, but my eyes stil shinning brightly out there. Worrying if its going for a rest, would the next day be better than today? Or will it be worst? Would the heart inside feel the warmth of the sun or it's going to be hard as stone? Nevertheless, i still find this sentence a little uneasy "Tomorrow will be better"

Hopefully...

2009-07-22T11:26:00.002+08:00

BRRR~ I'm freezing colddddd.. Such a nice weather to slp, but yet i'm stuck at work and being woken up 20 mins earlier by the sudden downpour.. Aiyo.. Tired, sleepy.. Sian.zzz

2009-07-15T19:37:00.002+08:00

feeling so sick rite now at tis very moment.. if nv took dinner, den i'll hungry cuz nv eat lunch.. eat le dinner now feel like puking out my dinner tat i jus took.. feelin so bloated, so disgusted and wanna vomit my just-ate-dinner out..

have i gotten 厌食症? no la, i dnt tik so.. cuz if nt everytime i eat wil feel throwing up.. but it jus irritates me..

2009-07-08T19:27:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. today had been waken in the opposite end of my bed ba.. felt having a lil moody.. well, suddenly i realise smth reali impt.. and reali sudden..

to treasure wadever time u had and wadever u have.. dnt wait til it's too late before realising that smth is too impt for u to lose.. well, can sae lots of stuff is hapenint to my surrounding frenz and ppl.. causing mi a lil affected..

well, hope tat tis moody feeling wil be gone for everione ba..

2009-06-28T19:44:00.002+08:00

OH boy oh boy... It's the mid of year 2009 already!!! Soon it wil be end of the yr wif christmas moods ard..

Oh, saying about christmas.. hmm.. *ting ting* Suddenly i have the urge to do alot of tiks.. do cheesecake, sweet items (like jelly, candies, chocolates and alot more).. doing alot of renovation, change over..

And I guess 24/7 hrs izzit enff for my urge and sudden thoughts..

First degree burnt

2009-06-21T20:34:00.002+08:00

Woo-hoo~ never had i suffered from so much injuries in 1 dae..

and it shows smth.. clever jiu hao.. dnt act clever.. lolz.. had a multiple of scratches, first degree burnt, and aching body.. all in 1 dae.. oh my..

Sims3 -= Let there be Sims =-

2009-06-18T21:55:00.002+08:00

Sims Sims Sims... Let there be Sims 3.. Wooo-hoo~~ Been so much addicted to this game that I hardly appear online that often too... haha..

Oh boy! Tml's fri!! Yuppie.. another weekend coming.. and i'm smelling my weekend.. my rest!! Yeah..

2009-06-02T20:42:00.002+08:00

Yoo-hoo~ The weather's been very hot and warm this feel days.. imagine that i perspire til almost my top is wet when i walk from bus stop to my office? like 5 mins walk?

Wif so hot, it's jus nice tat i can have an icy lolly and sit down in an aircon room.. =) Yeah, gotten a new microwave today.. yuppie.. =) tis makes it even lazier for lazy wendy already.. haha..

Oh did i mention tat even the water from the tap which used to be cold, turns out to be warm when i turn on the water tap. =(

And it's the best time for a swim.. Splash~

2009-05-19T18:09:00.004+08:00

wad if one dae where u guys no longer see me ard?
wad if one dae i gotten an illness and died?
wad if one day i got kidnapped?
wad if one day i gotten into an accident?

wad if i felt like breaking down now? =(

Spend Money

2009-05-15T21:48:00.003+08:00

Oh gosh... Wendy is experiencing a sudden urge to spend money, to go exercise and to go walk around.. Spend spend spend.. Walk Walk Walk..

oh yeah, saying about walk.. wad shld i do tml? where shld i go? aiyo.. walk so much 还不是这样，快要没有地方去了... If it's nt due to weather, den it's due to mood.. or if nt timing wise.. aiyo.. zhen ma fan..